I need to start cleaning my room!
Mmmm time for another update...
Boston won the world series. It was so awesome, the city was going NUTS, and I am so glad I got to be there for it all. The parade is on Saturday. Stoked.
MC Slut Reunion - Fall 2004 IN BOSTON! TOMORROW!!!! It is going to rock. I can't wait. We are going to slut it up like never before. And it is possible to slut it up even when it's like -8billion degrees outside, don't think we can't do it.
Things are going real well for me. I've come to accept certain things, things I can't change. And I'm changing the things I can. Why be upset forever? I mean, I'm only hurting myself anyway, and the people I love. So why not just get over whatever it is, and stop being an asshole. Which is what I'm doing. I have friends who care about me, someone who's in love with me, a family whom I love even though they don't approve of my decisions, and someone to love. I am getting a first-rate education in an awesome city, and things are ok. If Greg starts seeing other people in Orlando, that's ok. I'm not ruling out the possibility that I'll meet someone I'll like, but I know it won't be because I'm looking for it. I don't see guys with a potential for a relationship anymore, I see guys who aren't Greg. I have all that I need with him, whether or not we're "together". And even if he doesn't have all he needs with me, I'm ok with it. People are different, this is how I see things, and it's not something that's going to change. This isn't a struggle for me, I'm not fighting to hold on to this relationship. I was so hurt before because it's so hard for me to try to not care. Some things you just know, you just feel that it's right. Especially when you've held off emotionally for your entire life, waiting because you know there's something out there, you just feel it. Well, this is what it was, this is the feeling, the person, everything. If he doesn't see it that way, I'm ok with that, because I actually know what I think now, instead of trying to clumsily describe emotions I wasn't even sure I had like before. It's ok if he doesn't think how I think about us, because at least I know what it is I think about it instead of just saying "I don't know".
Anyway, in summation, things are good, because I want them to be good. And I ultimately decide my happiness, not Greg, not my family, not anyone.
Oh, I'm getting a job at Best Buy. They just have to do a criminal background check, talk to Nathan at the Fil-A (I miss working there...), and do a drug test. And then I'm IN!!! We get time and a half on Sundays too. And cd's for like, manufacturing price. Like 5 bucks. Stoked.
Love,
Nicole Leandra
Boston won the world series. It was so awesome, the city was going NUTS, and I am so glad I got to be there for it all. The parade is on Saturday. Stoked.
MC Slut Reunion - Fall 2004 IN BOSTON! TOMORROW!!!! It is going to rock. I can't wait. We are going to slut it up like never before. And it is possible to slut it up even when it's like -8billion degrees outside, don't think we can't do it.
Things are going real well for me. I've come to accept certain things, things I can't change. And I'm changing the things I can. Why be upset forever? I mean, I'm only hurting myself anyway, and the people I love. So why not just get over whatever it is, and stop being an asshole. Which is what I'm doing. I have friends who care about me, someone who's in love with me, a family whom I love even though they don't approve of my decisions, and someone to love. I am getting a first-rate education in an awesome city, and things are ok. If Greg starts seeing other people in Orlando, that's ok. I'm not ruling out the possibility that I'll meet someone I'll like, but I know it won't be because I'm looking for it. I don't see guys with a potential for a relationship anymore, I see guys who aren't Greg. I have all that I need with him, whether or not we're "together". And even if he doesn't have all he needs with me, I'm ok with it. People are different, this is how I see things, and it's not something that's going to change. This isn't a struggle for me, I'm not fighting to hold on to this relationship. I was so hurt before because it's so hard for me to try to not care. Some things you just know, you just feel that it's right. Especially when you've held off emotionally for your entire life, waiting because you know there's something out there, you just feel it. Well, this is what it was, this is the feeling, the person, everything. If he doesn't see it that way, I'm ok with that, because I actually know what I think now, instead of trying to clumsily describe emotions I wasn't even sure I had like before. It's ok if he doesn't think how I think about us, because at least I know what it is I think about it instead of just saying "I don't know".
Anyway, in summation, things are good, because I want them to be good. And I ultimately decide my happiness, not Greg, not my family, not anyone.
Oh, I'm getting a job at Best Buy. They just have to do a criminal background check, talk to Nathan at the Fil-A (I miss working there...), and do a drug test. And then I'm IN!!! We get time and a half on Sundays too. And cd's for like, manufacturing price. Like 5 bucks. Stoked.
Love,
Nicole Leandra