oh snap.
I finally fixed my computer. No more internet withdrawals.
I went home last weekend and did absolutely nothing. It was wonderful to just sit around my house in my pajamas all day and watch football with my family... sounds a lot like my weekends in high school. We went back to martin county friday night and sat in the parking lot for a while. I don't know how to feel about home anymore. I seem to think that everything would be better if I just lived there, but i'm afraid any dreams of me living there after graduation are definitely just dreams. I feel like I'm thinking too grown up being that a few months ago the only worry I had was what I was going to wear to my high school graduation parties. When i'm in martin county I lose all sense of responsibility, but being in gainesville makes my stomach churn at the thought of my 2 exams tomorrow. Where am I going to work after college? Am I even going to make it through engineering? Maybe I should just change my major to music now and get it over with. YES! Then I can live in martin county forever!... NOT! I think dispite my fear of the future.. I want it to come so badly. I think what I am afraid of is making a resume, dressing up, and sitting in a tiny room with a bunch of engineers attempting to get a job. What if I forget all the information I learned in college? I could see that happening...
Solution: Run away.