what the fuck eh?
you know, i'm not the most confident person in the world. i'm very outgoing, and i put on this aura of self-confidence, but when it really comes down to it, i'm afraid of rejection. thatsthe reason i have so much trouble making moves with girls. i don't know why i'm like that, i just am. i bring this up because for the first time last night, i walked into a party, saw a girl that i wanted, said to myself "i'm going to get her by the end of the night" and then actually did. it was weird cuz i've known this girl from before, and i just never really talked to her before. but i thought we clicked pretty well, and we made out before we left, so i thought things were going well. and the text messages after i had left saying things like "we should def hang out soon" were another indication that i'd done well. but this is the shit i don't understand and probably never will about girls. i invite this girl to lunch with me and my friends to grab some pizza and i get a text that says we cant hang out cuz she's seeing someone else, and that she's sorry she was "irrational" last night and kissed me. what the fuck is that shit? true, at least she tells me now before i get all attached, but why lead me on even a little? why not tell me last night instead of saying you wanna hang out??? can any girls explain that?! i'd really like to know what the fuck she was aiming to do, cuz if her goal was to play me and make me feel like an asshole then mission accomplished.
now that i'm done being a fucking sally, the party was really fun. and one positive thing about the situation is that it was a good confidence booster. i know i can pull that kinda thing off now. and christmas is in 2 days. weird, cuz i used to get so excited for like the entire week before christmas, but now i just dont give a shit. i think it has something to do with getting older.
we'll see how that girl situation plays out. hopefully she realizes that i'm the best kisser in the entire world and falls for me, and dumps whatever jerk she's dating at school.
now that i'm done being a fucking sally, the party was really fun. and one positive thing about the situation is that it was a good confidence booster. i know i can pull that kinda thing off now. and christmas is in 2 days. weird, cuz i used to get so excited for like the entire week before christmas, but now i just dont give a shit. i think it has something to do with getting older.
we'll see how that girl situation plays out. hopefully she realizes that i'm the best kisser in the entire world and falls for me, and dumps whatever jerk she's dating at school.