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I dont know what to do i mean why do i constantly think about food! it consumes my every thought and action. I sit at night thinking i could have eaten less and i could have lost weight. Food controls me , i feel sick when i even look at it. When i put it in my mouth i want with everything in me to spit it out! People say that being anorexic is about control but thats just it! We dont have control at all!!! If you would rather be beaten than put a burger in your mouth thats not control. Still i feel so good when i have nothing in me and the one thing i want most is the one thing i HATE. Food is not my friend but it is not my enemy. It is not a source of life nor death. For those of us who suffer like this food is God and we obey it.
no food for 2 days
no food for 2 days