why cant you run away like anyone else would?
thats what you're supposed to do.

run away
from me

and never look back.

i've got a new "friend"

at least this muse inspires fantastic stories. my teacher tells me to continue using this muse, because my writing is "clever, manipulated,melancholy and intense"

its really just someone else writing for me. im too ordinary to just be honest about it all.

-tricia

this is getting to be way too much to juggle.

one or the other.

or the other.

-tricia

we talk, and we bond over someone. we become so close in a matter of minutes after the ice is broken. its quite odd, my fascination with her enough to dream these things up. what is so great about this 30 year old woman that would make me dream about her. is it how beautiful she is, how she has something i want one day, how she is exactly like me ( Read more... )

things are awkward currently.

just in time for summer
i fall in love all over again

love hah
like that exists.

smile

but run, while doing so

-tricia

tricks
evil

-tricia

my name is lester burnham ( Read more... )

routine is flawed

too many outside factors, too many variables. routine is something we can never perfectly accomplish. well

something i can never 100% accomplish.

routine...smootine.

chaos is where everything lies...perfectly, but not.

ahhhhhhhhhhh

why am i even thinking about this.

im flawed

-tricia

im in the love with the truth
all the deception
all of it
and i like it
im in love with the manipulation

is it pain..if you enjoy it?
can it really hurt you, if it is what you live for?

is this who i have always been or has my mind been fucked?

everyone i fall asleep with you, and i wake up alone.

-tricia