...And reality strikes
I have been overly calm since the fire. It seemed like my mother was affected more than i was. Apparently i was just in shock. I forgot this is how i react when people die.
~Usually i make it till the funeral. That's when all the tears come. That's what happened with my Papa and Ashley. At Ashley's funeral, once i started crying i could not stop. It seemed like alot of people had that same problem...not really a problem though, i guess its good to get it all out at once. This time i didnt make it that far...
~I was perfectly fine through 1st and 3rd period... except for staring off into space once in a while. But then came english class. Mr. Currier always brings up current events... i should have known. He started talking about the fire and how it affected the whole state. I was collected. Then when he said "well, i dont want to single anyone out in class i'm just hoping none of you knew anyone that didnt make it",I started feeling my heart race again the same way it did when i found out about Nick and JB. Then ratboy had to mention Nick's name. That's it...i put my head down and the tears wouldnt stop as i tried not to draw attention to myself. Becky convinced me to leave the class, and calmed me down. Thanks so much, Becky. And Tricia got me a tissue and a hug. I'm glad i have friends who understand. We all went through a tragedy together a year and a half ago. I believe it only made us stronger as a family of friends. I really am so thankful i joined band; they say we are the best kids in the school. And our friends never cease to prove that. It's amazing.
~Usually i make it till the funeral. That's when all the tears come. That's what happened with my Papa and Ashley. At Ashley's funeral, once i started crying i could not stop. It seemed like alot of people had that same problem...not really a problem though, i guess its good to get it all out at once. This time i didnt make it that far...
~I was perfectly fine through 1st and 3rd period... except for staring off into space once in a while. But then came english class. Mr. Currier always brings up current events... i should have known. He started talking about the fire and how it affected the whole state. I was collected. Then when he said "well, i dont want to single anyone out in class i'm just hoping none of you knew anyone that didnt make it",I started feeling my heart race again the same way it did when i found out about Nick and JB. Then ratboy had to mention Nick's name. That's it...i put my head down and the tears wouldnt stop as i tried not to draw attention to myself. Becky convinced me to leave the class, and calmed me down. Thanks so much, Becky. And Tricia got me a tissue and a hug. I'm glad i have friends who understand. We all went through a tragedy together a year and a half ago. I believe it only made us stronger as a family of friends. I really am so thankful i joined band; they say we are the best kids in the school. And our friends never cease to prove that. It's amazing.