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Ok well here an update i've been thinking about random things and a guy came up in my mind someone that i almost had something with but ended it because he was too nice i haven't talked to him for a while i don't even know his email... hmmm i wonder if Justin does..... anyways I have exams and have a feeling i did pretty shitty on them. I am back with my ex i wonder how long it will last this time.... But i am not going to guam my brother needs a good boot in the ass because on top of all that he can't come to my grad because he is going to Hawaii with his wifes family >.< i guess the girl he fucks is more important then his baby sister grading..... i am going to party so hard cause i am not impressed... i guess thats my way of hiding my true feelings i cried for like 3 hours when i found this out....But i have realized there is more to life beyond this town, beyond this family, beyond these people, i am a bitch and i like being a bitch i may have few friends but at least i know they are true and not using me like the other fuckers.... grrrr well this weekend i am going skiing if the hill is alright. The weekend after i may go to trail, and the weekend after i am having a singles party with girls so we can veg out and just have fun, watching chick flicks, having lots of junk food, even if its for one night when we don't have to worry about the male population..... except the ones in the movies of course..... they don't count...... oo well i am sicker then a dog i quit smoking and i have been threatened at least 6 times before the semester ended and i guarantee 6 more before i leave.... i have 6 months then i am gone to Edmonton out of this hell hole i know it is cold over there but hey at least it is far away from here yet still close enough...... going to college going to be happy for once in my life going to disappear from this small town existence.Hopefully no one will remeber me and thats how i want it to be... i really do... but when some people turn 18 i want them to come to Edmonton and i'll show them how to drink Alberta style see i can already drink Alberta style cause thats how i drank before and it helped that i was drunk for the full 14 days i was there.... lol anyways i want to say i am sorry to anyone that i have hurt i really never meant to do that but thats what i am good at so people tell me. I am only hoping that people can forgive me....
Anyways i went for coffee today the boys weren't there grrrr. i wanted to tell one of them something i have kept to myself for so long and i just realized i guess i am a little to late because i am leaving in 6 months and i think he is staying here for the rest of his life...i guess thats the way it was meant to be, i wonder if i ask him to move if he will.... mmmmm *ponders* anyways thats what is new nothing much just that.
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Anyways i went for coffee today the boys weren't there grrrr. i wanted to tell one of them something i have kept to myself for so long and i just realized i guess i am a little to late because i am leaving in 6 months and i think he is staying here for the rest of his life...i guess thats the way it was meant to be, i wonder if i ask him to move if he will.... mmmmm *ponders* anyways thats what is new nothing much just that.
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