my love
I love him i honestly do. i swear its not like the other times is true love, it feels like i have known him for a long time but really its only been a short time. i met him sometime ago but he looked different but now we are friends no matter how much i think i hate him i really do love him. and i have to tell him. I will tell him on Friday when i see him, I am going to plant a huge kiss on his lips and give him the fattest hug ever. The christmas holidays are upon us and i don't know what to get him. He is getting me a present hopefully. So excited and nervous to tell him, i just don't know how to tell, what he's going to say. I really hope he returns the feelings. The times we spent talking, and the times we spent together were so special, if only i could turn back time and do it all over again but just not doing it over again.. it doesn't make sense i know but to me it does, somethings i would change others i wouldn't, like the time in the summer and the party that was fun if only, things were a little different. He has a piece of clothing that i need to get back but i am kinda scared to get it back cause i mean who knows what he has done with it. But hey i can always wash it. I can't start a serious relationship since i am going to be leaving in a few months for college and i can't get tied down, but i want to be, especially with him, he is so dear to my heart, every time i see him my heart leaps and my stomach does flip flops to bad he so close yet so far. He loves coffee he goes almost everyday just to get the coffee during his break at work, they even know him by name and i swear they have it ready for him. I am almost tempted to phone him up and be like hey lets go for a drive or hey lets go for a coffee but he is so close yet so far, in his past he has fooled around with 14-15 year olds so i would be like the oldest one, i know how bad he wants me but you know he is such a sweetheart i am afraid i am just going to abuse him and whip him like no other, i wasn't allowed to do that with me last 2 b/fs so it wouldn't be any fun i am afraid i am just going to take his heart out and play with it then just chew it up and spit it out then stomp on it and move on...
OO his name i bet ur asking yourself or just guessing his name is
Lee Shawkross and i love him with all my heart he is coming down on friday.....and i get to tell him to his face that i love him and give him a huge kiss.
I bet all of you were guessing it was Yasha haha had you all going there except maybe shannon ^.^ Muahahahaha
sorry about that i had to do it..... I know i am a bitch and i am proud of it >.
OO his name i bet ur asking yourself or just guessing his name is
Lee Shawkross and i love him with all my heart he is coming down on friday.....and i get to tell him to his face that i love him and give him a huge kiss.
I bet all of you were guessing it was Yasha haha had you all going there except maybe shannon ^.^ Muahahahaha
sorry about that i had to do it..... I know i am a bitch and i am proud of it >.