2015-01-13
Day 13: Be brave enough to know what you don't want.
Whether it comes to friendships, relationships, dinner, or a job. You don't have to know exactly what you do want, but be damn sure you know what you don't want. Life's too short to waste time with anything that brings you any negative feelings.
I had a 2nd interview. It was actually a job shadowing day. I followed a kid around all day doing what I would be doing had I gotten the job. But about 2 hours into the morning, I realized I didn't have the mental or physical stamina for the position itself...and on lunch we discussed the salary. There was none. This job, which I am expected to be at for 40+ hours a week, using my own car, pays 100% on commission. I know for a lot of people out there, that's not bad at all. A sale here, a sale there. Easy couple hundred bucks every week. But for me, at this point in my life, it is not going to happen. I do not have the gumption to befriend everyone or to sell products that these people need but do not need right now. I cannot rely on a commission-based income. I need a steady paycheck, even if it is small and fluctuating. I do not want to drive around, I do not want to make friends with customers, and I do not want to hope for money every week. I really wish I did, because this was a great company with great people and I'm sure I could get rich quick. But I can't, because I can't even pretend to want to be that kind of person. I hope I do someday, but right now it's not going to happen.
And instead of feeling down about another job I didn't get and another day of unemployment, I feel happy- Happy that I was brave enough to say no to a great opportunity because I know it is not what I want.
Whether it comes to friendships, relationships, dinner, or a job. You don't have to know exactly what you do want, but be damn sure you know what you don't want. Life's too short to waste time with anything that brings you any negative feelings.
I had a 2nd interview. It was actually a job shadowing day. I followed a kid around all day doing what I would be doing had I gotten the job. But about 2 hours into the morning, I realized I didn't have the mental or physical stamina for the position itself...and on lunch we discussed the salary. There was none. This job, which I am expected to be at for 40+ hours a week, using my own car, pays 100% on commission. I know for a lot of people out there, that's not bad at all. A sale here, a sale there. Easy couple hundred bucks every week. But for me, at this point in my life, it is not going to happen. I do not have the gumption to befriend everyone or to sell products that these people need but do not need right now. I cannot rely on a commission-based income. I need a steady paycheck, even if it is small and fluctuating. I do not want to drive around, I do not want to make friends with customers, and I do not want to hope for money every week. I really wish I did, because this was a great company with great people and I'm sure I could get rich quick. But I can't, because I can't even pretend to want to be that kind of person. I hope I do someday, but right now it's not going to happen.
And instead of feeling down about another job I didn't get and another day of unemployment, I feel happy- Happy that I was brave enough to say no to a great opportunity because I know it is not what I want.