dices que? i dont speak spanish

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i look for these perfections
eternal truths in life
but they dont exist

god
allah
g-d
all leave doubts
if a religion was fo sho guranteed to be what it is
it would be abused by self-centered who want heaven without any of the work
(kinda like these suicide bombers)

through this i am left questioning everything
why cant i just relize that i am the biggest obstacle for my dreams
my fantasy dreams
where everything is as easy as i blieve

but with my loss of faith i have lost my faith in dreams
if there is no God
there is no purpose
with no purpose
there is no definite course
the ppl we meet on the street are just that
random ppl on the street
there significance holding no more merit to our lives than a red ant jumping

but if my faith in God is to be reestablished it wll be because of these random occurances
how is that i wrote my english essay a week ago in this journal?
wat are the odds that we would get a prompt on prejduice as i wrote about prejudice without knowing
(YA I KNOW THE BOOK IS CALLED PRIDE AND PREJUDICE, BUT C'MON, I WASNT THINKIN BOUT IT AT THE TIME)

i'm writing this in english class
and the air conditioning sounds like an airplane

coincidence?

i pray not