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[iamashley8]

SO Im back from Chicago. I cant remember the last time I posted and Im too lazy to check so Ill recap for my own sake. My Uncle Ramo died from Lung Cancer. I ended up flying home with mom, mark and karin to go to the funeral. There were good things like seeing my dad and going to Sarah's party mixed in witht he bad things but for the most part it was a very sad weekend. At the visitaion I went in and didnt look at the casket because I knew I owuldnt be able to handle it but then I accidentaly caught a look and it really caught me off guard because I ended up having to walk very quickly to the bathroom to trow up and cry. Cry a lot. I dont see why people do that open casket thing. I do nt think its needed and it just seems like its disrespectful in a way. Just to have a dead body lying around. That night was Sarah's party and it was really good to see everyone. There was a lot of drinkning though and I ended up having to take care of Mel who was retarded enough to drink while on antibiotics for strep throat. Her brother and her boyfriend were very sweet in helping out too but I was very worried for awhile. The next day was very long and we had to go to the funeral and the service didnt really fit Uncle ramo until ken got up to speak and had every person in the room crying. Espcially the family. It was so sweet I couldnt believe it. Then to the cemetary which I could barely stand in because they make me really scared and sad. But then we went to the luncheon and it was perfect. Everyone was smiling and talking about how amazing a person he was and I think It was exactly how Ramo would have wanted it. He was a very family and friends oriented guy and the fact that we all got together would have made him very happy. ANd Im sure it did. Oh... there I go tearing up again.
Well I should probably go do something a little more productive.
have a good day everyone.