"the best is yet to come"
hi
i went on a picnic today. i officially suprised eric. i didn't screw it up. it wasn't perfect, but it felt as though it were. it wasn't exactly what i had planned, but it worked out so much better than expected. i woke him up, we ate the food i brought, used the basket i prepared, and lied down with lucie until i turned into a pumpkin and needed to leave.
during the time i was there, it felt like another wonderful day with eric. no fighting, no bickering, just spending time with the kid i fell in love with so many years ago. we have been dating for 6 years now. some people have gotten married in fewer years than that. and i love him dearly, always will, but today, the strangest feeling came over me.
as i was leaving to head home, we said a simple goodbye, nothing long and elaborate. there was no discussion of how we don't want it to end, there was no push to keep me there and make me late. it was this agreement of being content. i had the best morning and afternoon and it wasn't even perfect. i was content with everything happening in my life right at that moment. i was so happy just lying down with him and lucie, even with her drooling on my arm a bit, and just living in a perfect moment.
i was truly happy today. i was alive today.
i felt complete today for the first time in a long time.
thank you eric. i love you.
-Lindsey J.
i went on a picnic today. i officially suprised eric. i didn't screw it up. it wasn't perfect, but it felt as though it were. it wasn't exactly what i had planned, but it worked out so much better than expected. i woke him up, we ate the food i brought, used the basket i prepared, and lied down with lucie until i turned into a pumpkin and needed to leave.
during the time i was there, it felt like another wonderful day with eric. no fighting, no bickering, just spending time with the kid i fell in love with so many years ago. we have been dating for 6 years now. some people have gotten married in fewer years than that. and i love him dearly, always will, but today, the strangest feeling came over me.
as i was leaving to head home, we said a simple goodbye, nothing long and elaborate. there was no discussion of how we don't want it to end, there was no push to keep me there and make me late. it was this agreement of being content. i had the best morning and afternoon and it wasn't even perfect. i was content with everything happening in my life right at that moment. i was so happy just lying down with him and lucie, even with her drooling on my arm a bit, and just living in a perfect moment.
i was truly happy today. i was alive today.
i felt complete today for the first time in a long time.
thank you eric. i love you.
-Lindsey J.