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[iamabacus]

pow pow pow. i'm now unofficially dead. my heart is freezerburned. i have nothig left. my friends are keeping up my bare threads i'm hangin' on. like a mareinette zombie i walk through life. what a waste of time. boo hoo poor me. well fuck of i deserve a few complaints. the complaint department in my head can't keep up with them any longer. i was.

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[pussycow]

im so sorry honey bunny, i wanted to help you move. but oh well. you always seem to pull through the tough times, cuz you are strong. one of the strongest people i know.
hey you wanna be my date for my 10yr h.s. reunion? i think it would be rad if i brought a boyfriend who was a drag queen. you can pretend you are straight, but just happen to wear my clothes. ha ha.

hang in there. at least you got your health, right??? i love you abby!

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[iamabacus]

i'd love to be your date baby. i wasn't invited to my 1 year.
i had enough help in my move. i really appreciate you being my friend thats more than enough.
thank you for beleving in the strength i don't feel.

bam...

[neutron_x]

not so good.
It's funny how life is, just when you get used to it kicking you in the stomach, just when you clench down and it doesn't hurt so much, it rears up and kicks you in the head.

just try to hold on to hope you know?
and take comfort in friends where you can.

At least when everything is stripped down to it's barest essence you are most free to do whatever you want from there.

-C.

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[iamabacus]

i think my head is bleeding ive been kicked, stabbed, and shot. o.k. over dramatic i know. as far as hope goes its always there but its there to often to recognize it. well i am very lucky to have such good friends. i have a friend watching my cats and every one has opened there door to me. i kinda feel like going on a road trip. cause in a way i don't have ties.

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[neutron_x]

the best thing about having everything stripped away is you can literally, yeah... do anything.
friends and cats do help.
-C.

[allnightdiner]

don't worry what others think, everyone deserves a right to complain or be upset. plus it's your journal, so if they don't like it, they can fuck off?
as you tell me in my journal, i will tell you hear, things will get better.
as far as your job is concerned, at least you have stories to tell about helping plus sized women out of unmentionables with the jaws of life at the dinner table at night!

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[iamabacus]

yeah they can fuck off :)
i'm sort of happy to be starting from scratch.
no i'm lieing. well i know it'll be o.k. i just wonder why it happens to me all the time. do i have bad karma? i sware on the honkey tonk freeway i don't do mean things to no one.