Floating.
Hi guys.
Well, things are still very...retarded. I wish I could think of a better word to describe it, but I can't. It just sums it up so perfectly. Hah.
I'm still not speaking to my sister. God, I can't believe I have stood my ground for so long. The support I have recieved has been amazing...just people saying..."About time you stood up for yourself Renee..." and stuff like that has been really helpful.
Yesterday I came to the conclusion that I can no longer go on like I have been. I was so tired...and felt so drained. I had my last cry yesterday. I'm not going to do it anymore. No one is going to play around in MY life. I'm protecting it and myself, I have to. Otherwise I don't know where I'll end up. I can't help that people are so miserable with their own lives, that they have to play around in other people's to make themselves feel better. They can do that all they like...just not with me anymore.
I feel alot better now that I have made this decision...this pact with myself to not let anyone fuck around with me anymore. =)
Anyway, that's all from me. I hope everyone is well.
Much love.
Be well.
xo.
Well, things are still very...retarded. I wish I could think of a better word to describe it, but I can't. It just sums it up so perfectly. Hah.
I'm still not speaking to my sister. God, I can't believe I have stood my ground for so long. The support I have recieved has been amazing...just people saying..."About time you stood up for yourself Renee..." and stuff like that has been really helpful.
Yesterday I came to the conclusion that I can no longer go on like I have been. I was so tired...and felt so drained. I had my last cry yesterday. I'm not going to do it anymore. No one is going to play around in MY life. I'm protecting it and myself, I have to. Otherwise I don't know where I'll end up. I can't help that people are so miserable with their own lives, that they have to play around in other people's to make themselves feel better. They can do that all they like...just not with me anymore.
I feel alot better now that I have made this decision...this pact with myself to not let anyone fuck around with me anymore. =)
Anyway, that's all from me. I hope everyone is well.
Much love.
Be well.
xo.