Mmm. Tim Tams.
Hey guys.
So today I am in a fair bit of pain. I went to a Bowen therapist today for my back and neck this morning, because they've been really bad. This blind guy did it...it was really strange. Seriously, when he started...I was like, 'what the hell? How is this meant to make a difference?'...I can bloody tell that it's going to make a difference now, considering the pain I am in. Hopefully, my back and neck will be better in the next few days. =)
Like my physical health, things still continue to be...crap. For the first time in my life, I am seriously considering moving away from the Latrobe Valley. That's the hugest call ever, considering all my family is down here, as are my godchildren. I am beginning to resent people...those that were once my friends, and my family. I do not want to be in a place like that. I have tried to hard to ignore it...but when people, including my own sister, are talking about me behind my back...it hurts just too much. I have people checking up on me...calling places to see if I'm there or if I'm lying. I kid you not. Even my own mother accused me of lying to her when I said I was going for coffee with a friend. I have never lied to my mother about where I have been before.
I am 4 months off 21 & I have to ring and tell Mum where I am going...who I am with. If there's a change of plans, she has to know. I understand if I was to go on a random road trip 4 hours away, but when I am in the same town I originally planned to be in...maybe at someone different's house, then I don't understand why she has to know. Her excuse was that what if she needed to get into contact with me? I told her that was why mobile phone's were invented.
My life is becoming unbearable.
I don't know what I've done to deserve this.
I'm sorry that my entries are crap nearly all the time. But this is the only place that I can vent. I have a MySpace, but all my friends are on that.
Hope everyone is well.
Much love.
xox.
So today I am in a fair bit of pain. I went to a Bowen therapist today for my back and neck this morning, because they've been really bad. This blind guy did it...it was really strange. Seriously, when he started...I was like, 'what the hell? How is this meant to make a difference?'...I can bloody tell that it's going to make a difference now, considering the pain I am in. Hopefully, my back and neck will be better in the next few days. =)
Like my physical health, things still continue to be...crap. For the first time in my life, I am seriously considering moving away from the Latrobe Valley. That's the hugest call ever, considering all my family is down here, as are my godchildren. I am beginning to resent people...those that were once my friends, and my family. I do not want to be in a place like that. I have tried to hard to ignore it...but when people, including my own sister, are talking about me behind my back...it hurts just too much. I have people checking up on me...calling places to see if I'm there or if I'm lying. I kid you not. Even my own mother accused me of lying to her when I said I was going for coffee with a friend. I have never lied to my mother about where I have been before.
I am 4 months off 21 & I have to ring and tell Mum where I am going...who I am with. If there's a change of plans, she has to know. I understand if I was to go on a random road trip 4 hours away, but when I am in the same town I originally planned to be in...maybe at someone different's house, then I don't understand why she has to know. Her excuse was that what if she needed to get into contact with me? I told her that was why mobile phone's were invented.
My life is becoming unbearable.
I don't know what I've done to deserve this.
I'm sorry that my entries are crap nearly all the time. But this is the only place that I can vent. I have a MySpace, but all my friends are on that.
Hope everyone is well.
Much love.
xox.