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I am still existing, I have been going online more frequently. There are things I need to take care of. Books I need to read. I gather some presents for people who I think are important to me. I gather presents for people who I want to see happy because of me. I hang out with people who I like and think are fun, but then melodramatically wonder why they're hanging out with me. My parentals want me doing something productive with my time. I write a letter in my head but don't send it. I haven't been losing weight as fast as I'd like. All of a sudden I've lost 5 pounds. That encourages me some. I realize I have some issue. I watch a little less star trek as it meets with disapproval if I watch more than an episode a day. I want to go on a long walk to the thrift stores, but don't because parentals are around and I want to do it alone. I tell people I'm in texas staying with family. I say family instead of Dad and Step-mom. I think it's just to be easier, to not have to explain more. It could be something deeper. I don't have hours at Cupp'a Joe anymore. I've told them I don't care how many hours I work. It hurts a little. It's stupid, they don't need me. I get 1/2 off and the ability to say that I have a job. That's all I went in for. But it hurts a little. It's stupid. I need to cash my paychecks. I don't really live in reality. I've been reading D&D books again, thinking about my campaign. Yeah. Not much to really say.
I am still existing, I have been going online more frequently. There are things I need to take care of. Books I need to read. I gather some presents for people who I think are important to me. I gather presents for people who I want to see happy because of me. I hang out with people who I like and think are fun, but then melodramatically wonder why they're hanging out with me. My parentals want me doing something productive with my time. I write a letter in my head but don't send it. I haven't been losing weight as fast as I'd like. All of a sudden I've lost 5 pounds. That encourages me some. I realize I have some issue. I watch a little less star trek as it meets with disapproval if I watch more than an episode a day. I want to go on a long walk to the thrift stores, but don't because parentals are around and I want to do it alone. I tell people I'm in texas staying with family. I say family instead of Dad and Step-mom. I think it's just to be easier, to not have to explain more. It could be something deeper. I don't have hours at Cupp'a Joe anymore. I've told them I don't care how many hours I work. It hurts a little. It's stupid, they don't need me. I get 1/2 off and the ability to say that I have a job. That's all I went in for. But it hurts a little. It's stupid. I need to cash my paychecks. I don't really live in reality. I've been reading D&D books again, thinking about my campaign. Yeah. Not much to really say.