Aug 14, 2004 14:41
aiight so I havent exactly been cooperating much @ home. Im just to the point where I dont care about the consequences of my actions w/ my mom. B/c well I'd rather be out, anywhere else than home dealing with my family. If it was up to me I would have moved out by now, if there was somewhere for me to go. I mean its fuckig summer..I want to enjoy it! And I have a job. Its not like I slacked these past two months @ all!!
-So I recieved some info from my brother and his Girlfriend. B/c I guess my mom thinks she can confide in them and get the dirt on me.(good joke) So I heard that she wants me to go to Long Island with my Father or she is just gonna let me do whatever I want and let me deal with the consequenes. Fine with me .. its not like im a future convict. Im not nearly as bad as some people I know. Or shes going to try to put me on PINS. I'll run away before that happens. So as sick and twisted as it may sound. Im gonna just keep rebelling until she gives up. Im pushing the bitch to the limits already. Shes bound to give up soon.
I could live on my own if she would just let me. I wouldnt ask her for anything. But n0o shes being a difficult bitch! So right now my whole life is hanging on by a thread. .. .
Go to Long Island =(. . .do what I want & deal with the consequences =) . .group homes..drug tests..P.O. officers =(
THIS SUCKS .....pray for me
Im sick of trying when it comes to the opposite sex!(for now) I find a guy im totally into in every way, have a few good times but I find out he just recently started seeing some girl upstate ..so I'm over that. Now this guy steve is into me, hes an awesome guy but Im not attracted to him. Now i hafta let him down gently =). So what the hell does a girl do? Me: Im taking a break to clear my head and breathe and just pimp it for a while! =).. its hard sometimes coz I get caught up in feelings and I lose my head. Imma try not to.
bE eASsYy