calm under the waves..

[i_willremember]

im officially back in the 301. now why is it that the first thing on my mind is matthew?
i should be picking myself back up. and i AM motivated to do it. i am motivated to work and continue living the way i have been over the past month. but he didnt just creep back into my mind. he flooded my thoughts and now i cant escape the image of him. one particular Maria Mena song always connects to him, in my mind. not in a literal sense so much as figuratively. quite figuratively.

.calm under the waves.

i walk barefoot where the water drowns the sand
with you no longer here to hold my hand
i let go, i let go.
the ocean makes my swelling heart feel small
with the sounds it makes, you wont hear it if i call
i let go, i let go.
there's a breeze in the air
there's a boat anchored out here
there's a calm under the waves
as i choose to sink

your skin protected me from sun beams
you hands made sure i'd stay in tact
i let go, i let go.
you were always there to walk me home
with you not here, the streets i roam
i let go, i let go.
there's a breeze in the air
there's a boat passing over there
there's a calm under the waves
as i choose to sink

with your voice in my head
i could float here instead
but there's a calm under the waves
so i choose to sink.

im tired now,
i'll see you when i wake up
i've heard its pretty where you are
i let go.
i let go.