you walked through that door..
yesterday was an adventure.
in a way, i think it was just what i needed.
kelci met me at my house a little after 1..or 2:00. im not sure. all i remember is crying and talking to melissa online for a long, long time and crying some more.
so i got ready and kelc&i went to panera for a late lunch. we talked and i felt a little better. then we headed downtown and met up with jase, steph, erica, karla, andy, jonathan, annie, and danny. it was fun for the most part. i really tried to have fun. and its not like i didnt, but the more time i spent outside in a crowd, the more down i got. the more i missed matthew and the more the tears kept bottling up inside me.
so finally i told kelci i needed to leave. so we went to urbana and found miles' house ALL BY OURSELVES!! WHOOP lives by a bank! we ended up dropping ian off at his house and then going back to sean's to chill til "band practice" at 7:30. in the middle of said events, i had a breakdown in my car. luckily kelci was right beside me. she's seriously the best friend i've ever, ever had. she cares so much and it just..it made me weep. i love her more than i can say. i am so grateful to have her throughout all of this. i dont know what i'd do without her or any of my friends.
the show was interesting. WHOOP six people there! so afterwards evan, brian, miles, and i came back to mah house and drank and i listened to them play music and we laughed and talked til 4:30 in the morning.
im sick of constantly being on the verge of tears.
in a way, i think it was just what i needed.
kelci met me at my house a little after 1..or 2:00. im not sure. all i remember is crying and talking to melissa online for a long, long time and crying some more.
so i got ready and kelc&i went to panera for a late lunch. we talked and i felt a little better. then we headed downtown and met up with jase, steph, erica, karla, andy, jonathan, annie, and danny. it was fun for the most part. i really tried to have fun. and its not like i didnt, but the more time i spent outside in a crowd, the more down i got. the more i missed matthew and the more the tears kept bottling up inside me.
so finally i told kelci i needed to leave. so we went to urbana and found miles' house ALL BY OURSELVES!! WHOOP lives by a bank! we ended up dropping ian off at his house and then going back to sean's to chill til "band practice" at 7:30. in the middle of said events, i had a breakdown in my car. luckily kelci was right beside me. she's seriously the best friend i've ever, ever had. she cares so much and it just..it made me weep. i love her more than i can say. i am so grateful to have her throughout all of this. i dont know what i'd do without her or any of my friends.
the show was interesting. WHOOP six people there! so afterwards evan, brian, miles, and i came back to mah house and drank and i listened to them play music and we laughed and talked til 4:30 in the morning.
im sick of constantly being on the verge of tears.