I've been away

[i_still_cry]

To all of you who know why I've been away thank you for not running in terror the other way - my journey from now on will be a hard one, but there is one thing I know - I am going to get better - whatever it takes - because I cann't go through this amount of pain anymore.
I know you can't understand because I am the only one who feels exactly what I feel the way I feel it and about what I feel.
I need close friends and piles of support right now
I need me