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So, as is typical of me recently I am making a livejournal entry when I'm back home sitting in a favorite coffee shop. I don't think there will ever be any getting used to Muncie, Indiana. Thank god that a couple of profs don't like me that much - otherwise I could end up in Muncie longer than I want to.
All things are progressing well:
+ my sessions with the counselor are following their twisted lines, waiting for me to reenact my frustrations as soon as the sessions fade a little. I think she has single-handedly increased my trust in people by some significant percentage. Even a 37% increase in ability to trust - though of course such a number make no sense - would undoubtedly boost quality of interaction with the world by quite a lot. It's going to end soon; be nice to find a way to polish it off a little.
+ Also due to the therapist, I've recently done several socially forward things that have never really happened before. None things result in major changes, but they're all significant nonetheless - they're make my interaction with life easier. Eventually they may accrue as well; getting easier to stomach that ambiguity.
+ Muncie is still Muncie. It's a drab, boring, economically depressed place. I don't think I'll ever actually like Muncie, but my stay there is at least becoming more relaxed.
+ I've written before about no longer playing the disingenuous part of arrogant aesthete, but nevertheless I was happy to recently have discovered someone who doesn't think Radiohead is the apotheosis of musical expression (they've QUITE a fan base in Indiana), or doesn't want to give me a high five because I know who Dave Matthews is. Ironically I do not have the reputation for liking music amongst my classmates.
+ I'm missing the ability to read what I want a little. Christmas break is coming.
+ I now know that I'm going to end up writing my thesis on the effects of social class. My advisor suggested the topic, it fits all of my experiences including my assistantship, and I growing more fascinated with it. It's another slightly ironic thing in my life - I am previously accustomed to viewing people's personalities and accompanying frustrations in a mainly individual way, and now I'm going to be thinking about systemic problems.
Ok, back to relaxing. May get all livejournal active over the next few days...
All things are progressing well:
+ my sessions with the counselor are following their twisted lines, waiting for me to reenact my frustrations as soon as the sessions fade a little. I think she has single-handedly increased my trust in people by some significant percentage. Even a 37% increase in ability to trust - though of course such a number make no sense - would undoubtedly boost quality of interaction with the world by quite a lot. It's going to end soon; be nice to find a way to polish it off a little.
+ Also due to the therapist, I've recently done several socially forward things that have never really happened before. None things result in major changes, but they're all significant nonetheless - they're make my interaction with life easier. Eventually they may accrue as well; getting easier to stomach that ambiguity.
+ Muncie is still Muncie. It's a drab, boring, economically depressed place. I don't think I'll ever actually like Muncie, but my stay there is at least becoming more relaxed.
+ I've written before about no longer playing the disingenuous part of arrogant aesthete, but nevertheless I was happy to recently have discovered someone who doesn't think Radiohead is the apotheosis of musical expression (they've QUITE a fan base in Indiana), or doesn't want to give me a high five because I know who Dave Matthews is. Ironically I do not have the reputation for liking music amongst my classmates.
+ I'm missing the ability to read what I want a little. Christmas break is coming.
+ I now know that I'm going to end up writing my thesis on the effects of social class. My advisor suggested the topic, it fits all of my experiences including my assistantship, and I growing more fascinated with it. It's another slightly ironic thing in my life - I am previously accustomed to viewing people's personalities and accompanying frustrations in a mainly individual way, and now I'm going to be thinking about systemic problems.
Ok, back to relaxing. May get all livejournal active over the next few days...