shoot me..
my sunday sucked shit.
I stayed up till 8:30 with ayla, playing games on yahoo.
then I went to bed..and slept the whole day away.. I think I woke up twice.. but that was only to use the bathroom.. and to cry. I haven't eaten in two days. I can't. just thinking makes me sick to my stomache.
ever since I found out Matthew has cancer, I don't wanna do anything. I just wanna curl in my bed.. and die.. I don't really know how to act.. just.. knowing that someone has cancer makes me sad.. but knowing that someone who has it.. its horrible... =[ but hes going to be fine, everyones told me he will be... I haven't really been talking to the people I used to talk to.. like.. my friend Josh thinks I hate him.. because I haven't talked to him in like 4 weeks.. and I mean.. we used to talk EVERY single day.. for like hours.. and then all asudden.. nothing.... my ears hurt like a bitch... I gauged them to a zero. and mom FREAKED she like grabbed them and was like WTF BLAH BLAH
yeah.. I don't feel like typing. kay. bye
I stayed up till 8:30 with ayla, playing games on yahoo.
then I went to bed..and slept the whole day away.. I think I woke up twice.. but that was only to use the bathroom.. and to cry. I haven't eaten in two days. I can't. just thinking makes me sick to my stomache.
ever since I found out Matthew has cancer, I don't wanna do anything. I just wanna curl in my bed.. and die.. I don't really know how to act.. just.. knowing that someone has cancer makes me sad.. but knowing that someone who has it.. its horrible... =[ but hes going to be fine, everyones told me he will be... I haven't really been talking to the people I used to talk to.. like.. my friend Josh thinks I hate him.. because I haven't talked to him in like 4 weeks.. and I mean.. we used to talk EVERY single day.. for like hours.. and then all asudden.. nothing.... my ears hurt like a bitch... I gauged them to a zero. and mom FREAKED she like grabbed them and was like WTF BLAH BLAH
yeah.. I don't feel like typing. kay. bye