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亲爱的吴亦凡:
this is a note you will never read. right now, i don't know where in the world you are right now, what you are doing, how you are doing. and i miss you - i miss you the way chanyeol always looks to his right whenever he's finished with his intro at concerts, the way i listen to exo songs and feel a little sense of loss, a certain twinge when your rap parts come on. the way i realise knock knock will never again post previews/HDs of you, the way i realise that there's always going to be a certain imbalance in previously ot12 formations, the way i am so unused to using '11' to refer to exo. i miss you and even up till now i still want to be selfish, to ask you to return, because your departure exposed so many of the flaws and cracks i never wanted to believe possible.
i miss you, but i hope that wherever you are right now, you are happy. that you're healthy, doing well, and hopefully thinking a little bit about the other eleven.
this is a note you will never read. right now, i don't know where in the world you are right now, what you are doing, how you are doing. and i miss you - i miss you the way chanyeol always looks to his right whenever he's finished with his intro at concerts, the way i listen to exo songs and feel a little sense of loss, a certain twinge when your rap parts come on. the way i realise knock knock will never again post previews/HDs of you, the way i realise that there's always going to be a certain imbalance in previously ot12 formations, the way i am so unused to using '11' to refer to exo. i miss you and even up till now i still want to be selfish, to ask you to return, because your departure exposed so many of the flaws and cracks i never wanted to believe possible.
i miss you, but i hope that wherever you are right now, you are happy. that you're healthy, doing well, and hopefully thinking a little bit about the other eleven.