i changed my mind
i think im better off just being friends with people. and i dont think i like anyone at this point anymore. friends are better. now i know everyone is probably like "emily agh why are you always saying stuff like this. in a week you will want a boyfriend" and well honestly this may be true but i would rather live in the present and presently i am content. anyway i change i mind too much to have a long relationship so things are better this way. =)