Caught up in your own web of lies...
32. It's the number of bobby pins that were in my hair on Prom night. It's the number of trips I probably made to that fountain of chocolate. And it's possibly the number of times I told Scott I loved him Saturday night.
It's ALSO the number of times I have watched Kathryn's face fall today, the number of times I have glared at Jason, the number of times I have had to console my best friend today for something that she had no way of preventing, and the number of times I have THANKED GOD that my boyfriend loves me enough not to cheat on me--DESPITE the countless opportunities I know he has had...especially with a CERTAIN girl.
I used to be jealous of her. Yea. I always wanted all the attention she got, especially from guys, and how she always seemed to grab the hearts of all the guys I liked. I used to want to BE her. Until I saw her continually stab me, as well as one of my BEST friends, in the back. Lying and manipulating gets you NOWHERE. You begin hurting everyone around you. Slowly at first, so they come back and give you another chance, but then you just continue to degrade them and go behind their back, lying to them the whole time, even though THEY support YOU 100% and constantly defend you against people that don't, including their BEST friend, until one day they realize the way you really are. Your friendship consisted of lies and mis-given trust. One day, when they finally realize the "friend" you turned out to be, you're left with nothing but guilt and anger, which you place on them, when the only person you have to be angry with is yourself. Throwing yourself on every guy who has a girlfriend is another GREAT way to make people hate you. Not only do they not trust you, they begin to lose confidence in their boyfriends and their intentions as well. Because everytime they turn around, you're flirting, writing notes, or finding any way possible to make their boyfriend notice YOU. You call THEM a bitch, but you refuse to accept it when it's being thrown back into your own face.
Which brings me to another point. WHY DO GUYS CHEAT ON THEIR GIRLFRIENDS?? Or vice versa? Why do people cheat at all? It's so POINTLESS! Ok. If you don't like the person you are going out with to the point that you don't care enough to stay loyal to them, BREAK UP WITH THEM!! You can't have the best of both worlds! Choose--either you stay loyal to your boyfriend or girlfriend, or you break up with them. That way, you won't have to worry about them eventually finding out you cheated on them, or feeling guilty about doing it. Be fair to them. It only causes pain. Between the boyfriend and girlfriend, and also between the one being cheated on and the one who the person cheated WITH. Trust me. I've watched it happen TWICE within the past four days. Especially if it happens at St. Bernard. Sooner or later, the other person in the relationship WILL find out they've been cheated on...it may be 5 days later, or 5 MONTHS later, but eventually the truth will come out. And it all could've been avoided if there would've been no lies in the first place.
It's ALSO the number of times I have watched Kathryn's face fall today, the number of times I have glared at Jason, the number of times I have had to console my best friend today for something that she had no way of preventing, and the number of times I have THANKED GOD that my boyfriend loves me enough not to cheat on me--DESPITE the countless opportunities I know he has had...especially with a CERTAIN girl.
I used to be jealous of her. Yea. I always wanted all the attention she got, especially from guys, and how she always seemed to grab the hearts of all the guys I liked. I used to want to BE her. Until I saw her continually stab me, as well as one of my BEST friends, in the back. Lying and manipulating gets you NOWHERE. You begin hurting everyone around you. Slowly at first, so they come back and give you another chance, but then you just continue to degrade them and go behind their back, lying to them the whole time, even though THEY support YOU 100% and constantly defend you against people that don't, including their BEST friend, until one day they realize the way you really are. Your friendship consisted of lies and mis-given trust. One day, when they finally realize the "friend" you turned out to be, you're left with nothing but guilt and anger, which you place on them, when the only person you have to be angry with is yourself. Throwing yourself on every guy who has a girlfriend is another GREAT way to make people hate you. Not only do they not trust you, they begin to lose confidence in their boyfriends and their intentions as well. Because everytime they turn around, you're flirting, writing notes, or finding any way possible to make their boyfriend notice YOU. You call THEM a bitch, but you refuse to accept it when it's being thrown back into your own face.
Which brings me to another point. WHY DO GUYS CHEAT ON THEIR GIRLFRIENDS?? Or vice versa? Why do people cheat at all? It's so POINTLESS! Ok. If you don't like the person you are going out with to the point that you don't care enough to stay loyal to them, BREAK UP WITH THEM!! You can't have the best of both worlds! Choose--either you stay loyal to your boyfriend or girlfriend, or you break up with them. That way, you won't have to worry about them eventually finding out you cheated on them, or feeling guilty about doing it. Be fair to them. It only causes pain. Between the boyfriend and girlfriend, and also between the one being cheated on and the one who the person cheated WITH. Trust me. I've watched it happen TWICE within the past four days. Especially if it happens at St. Bernard. Sooner or later, the other person in the relationship WILL find out they've been cheated on...it may be 5 days later, or 5 MONTHS later, but eventually the truth will come out. And it all could've been avoided if there would've been no lies in the first place.