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Current text that really sums up my life currently:
"Heyyy friend. So, are you going to throw up in my yard every time we try to go take the test? It's totally cool, but, uh, maybe if we didn't do that so you actually y'know TAKE THE FUCKING TEST ALREADY JESUS CHRIST YOU CAN'T GET ACCREDITED WITHOUT IT IT'S A VERY SMALL STEP IN THE PROCESS YOU DUMB FUCK like take some xanax or smoke some weed or we'll do a couple shots in the car just figure your life out get your shit together *insert full Morty lecture* because holy shit Ksauce you are tripping out and it's still just phase 1 you CAN NOT do this at this point. Anyyywayy... hmu for coffee or hangs later heartu"
I can not get out of my head for this test. I know the material. I know it in my sleep. There is no question of passing. There is no risk. There is no worry. This is nothing.
And yet. Still can't go take it without this nonsense.
And he's right. This isn't even, this isn't even a big deal, AT ALL. It's literally just to place into the program like it's specific stuff but it's 101 bullshit and oh gawddammit, me, get your shit together.
Doing great*!
(Sarcasm because obviously I'm awful at being a functioning person when it comes to this test buuuuuut I'm actually still doing pretty rad and y'know, maybe it just wouldn't be me if I didn't have something to panic about for no reason)
Dear future me: Sorry I delayed this. Also, you're welcome for the laughs and feeling better about how you're not this piece of shit anymore. Yay us!
"Heyyy friend. So, are you going to throw up in my yard every time we try to go take the test? It's totally cool, but, uh, maybe if we didn't do that so you actually y'know TAKE THE FUCKING TEST ALREADY JESUS CHRIST YOU CAN'T GET ACCREDITED WITHOUT IT IT'S A VERY SMALL STEP IN THE PROCESS YOU DUMB FUCK like take some xanax or smoke some weed or we'll do a couple shots in the car just figure your life out get your shit together *insert full Morty lecture* because holy shit Ksauce you are tripping out and it's still just phase 1 you CAN NOT do this at this point. Anyyywayy... hmu for coffee or hangs later heartu"
I can not get out of my head for this test. I know the material. I know it in my sleep. There is no question of passing. There is no risk. There is no worry. This is nothing.
And yet. Still can't go take it without this nonsense.
And he's right. This isn't even, this isn't even a big deal, AT ALL. It's literally just to place into the program like it's specific stuff but it's 101 bullshit and oh gawddammit, me, get your shit together.
Doing great*!
(Sarcasm because obviously I'm awful at being a functioning person when it comes to this test buuuuuut I'm actually still doing pretty rad and y'know, maybe it just wouldn't be me if I didn't have something to panic about for no reason)
Dear future me: Sorry I delayed this. Also, you're welcome for the laughs and feeling better about how you're not this piece of shit anymore. Yay us!