things may be looking up....
IrisHey Yall.... I hope you like my new song! Well I finally got a lot of my answered tonight. I got to see Kyle. God Works I misterious ways. Right after I filled out a prayer request Kyle shows up and we talk and I find out that he is a cutter too. This is why he didn't answer my phone calls. He knows that I like hime and he is cool with that. He likes me too, but its like you can't have a great relationship with two Achoholics. You will trigger each other. He was not doing it because he didn't like me or thought I wasn't pretty. He just didn't want to have a relationship with me or anyone for that matter because he is fighting his own demons with cutting right now. I am really really glad that I got to talk to him. We have so much in common it is rediculous! I swear if you met him he is like a guy copy of me. We dont look alike but I am telling you it is weird. Anyway. I really had a great time with him tonight. We finally had some alone time to just sit around and talk with each other! It was a really great talk. We have the same taste in music, we have LOADS in common. Right now at this place in time we both need to work on our selves. If we can both be stable and both be confident and both be strong at the same time then we can persue the relationship. This is what he said to me, but right now neither of us are ready for that right now. Not to say he isn't iterested and that he doesn't want to hang out and do stuff together. He does, and now that we have talked about I am sure that we will be hanging out more often. I need to work on me and I need to work on my relationship with God and Jesus. I will most defently be going back to Ikon. That is the christian group that meets on tuesdays at 8. This is the first time I have gone to the peoples church and enjoyed my self and worshiped with a whole heart and gotten something out of it. It wasn't yelling and screaming it wasn't crazy and telling me that I am going to burn in Hell or that I am a crazy hellish person. I really enjoyed my self. I also enjoyed FINALLY talking to KYLE! YAY I am so glad that, that is cleared up. I will be praying more often. I love you all and GOD! Thanks For believing in me!