my own struggles
Some of us have had better days-- I don't know as far as I couldn't tell if my days has gone worse and smitten with misinterpretations, misconceptions and disadvantages from my "own" people. I have had quite of experiences while I was growing up... I am an idealist and impressionable person, in one way I am strong and in another, I easily let people to destroy me and my passion toward something greater. Sometimes, I felt that they impersonate me from time to time and sometimes there was no way to get the truth out. One thing I don't understand the real reason why for entire of my life as of myself as whole as I am has translated from other people that was made of me has not changed or it somewhat has. They have made me the way I am and I have nothing left to prove. I might will never may be able to make my own PERSON with these people as it was already engraved-- the more I have tried or to say then the more deeper the engraving would be. Eventually and effortlessly, I would prove to them who or what they want me to be as they made me and there would be no way out. Otherwise, I should be glad because then I will know who I have been wasting my breath with, so I can finally breathe and cut these meaningless people off from my life guiltlessly and to grow deeper root to the higher reach.
I never once cared what they say or think about me, but then, why now do I? They may say that I have ways with words to "win" the arguments and to victimized other people. Thats true and untrue, I had done worse back in the old days especially with authorities: I went through daily combats with these people who thinks that they could control me. Bad and old habits die hard and it carries me around with other people who I love to be with. It kind of made them shattered a bit with all of the other side of other people's misinterpretations, misconceptions, and disadvantages because all of my strong words and thoughts could be for endless of reasons and to go by whatever the world says. I always have been up against the world-- I think. How can a someone stands themselves corrected all the time? I think I am beginning to ran out of my charms and beginning to burnt myself out. I am suffocating with phenomenal things being overlapped from one and another from days and days to come.
People just ought to open up to me a little and to get to know my struggle of reasons. I have had been also holding my guards up all the time as nobody could get through me-- when they do they come up with misinterpretations, misconceptions and disadvantages to describe me as whole. Don't ever chose believe that is the complete truth, just ask me. Anybody could put their past behind but we would never ever able to forget the experiences and how it shapes who we are now.
Tara Lynn*~!
portrayalynn.com
I never once cared what they say or think about me, but then, why now do I? They may say that I have ways with words to "win" the arguments and to victimized other people. Thats true and untrue, I had done worse back in the old days especially with authorities: I went through daily combats with these people who thinks that they could control me. Bad and old habits die hard and it carries me around with other people who I love to be with. It kind of made them shattered a bit with all of the other side of other people's misinterpretations, misconceptions, and disadvantages because all of my strong words and thoughts could be for endless of reasons and to go by whatever the world says. I always have been up against the world-- I think. How can a someone stands themselves corrected all the time? I think I am beginning to ran out of my charms and beginning to burnt myself out. I am suffocating with phenomenal things being overlapped from one and another from days and days to come.
People just ought to open up to me a little and to get to know my struggle of reasons. I have had been also holding my guards up all the time as nobody could get through me-- when they do they come up with misinterpretations, misconceptions and disadvantages to describe me as whole. Don't ever chose believe that is the complete truth, just ask me. Anybody could put their past behind but we would never ever able to forget the experiences and how it shapes who we are now.
Tara Lynn*~!
portrayalynn.com