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[i_ht_wolfe]

Why do I feel like its all falling away? Even her, she'd rather spend time with him, because they're inlove, and when its the three of us, I'm invisible. I know she doesnt mean it, and she tries, but its hard. We can be talking one second, he'll start touching her, and then I'm forgotten. I'm glad she's happy, she deserves it, but I'm scared that she'll forget me. Am I being selfish? Probably, but I feel like she's all I have. I dont have any real friends, I'm single, and I dont exactly get on with my family. I want her to be happy, but I dont want to lose her. But mabye I dont deserve her, I mean, I'm nothing but a pathetic waste of space. I'm a slag, I know, but its because I feel like when I'm having sex, thats the only time anyone cares. I know its stupid, but thats how I feel. I use to feel like someone cared about me, but he broke my heart. I miss it. I miss the feeling of someone loving me and caring about me. Nobody cares. Nobody ever did.

(8) I'm sorry, but this is my fate, everything is worhtless, nobody wants me to stay. And I'm sorry, but this is my fate, so heres my good bye, no-one will cry over me, I'm not worth any tears(8)

I'm not going to do anything, I'm already a burden. I dont want anyone to have to clean up after me.