fight fire with fire, ending is near, fight fire with fire, bursting with fear...
gawd, dude, im so afraid that brian aint gunna wanna wait for me to figure all this shit out... i mean, i know he loves me and he knows i love him but i dont know what the fuck is going on. dude, if i ever lost him.. you people just dont have a fucking clue what would happen to me. i would literally just fall off the face of the earth. he means the whole fucking world and more to me. there is nothing more special to me. but right now i just need my space and i know that it hurts him for us to be on a break from each other but its gunna make everything all right. hes afraid that i wont come back to him and that ill go out with someone else but i just couldnt do that. there is no one else out that that i want. im just so confused and everything. but no one really gets it. one of the little "rules" was that we would talk very little but i just realized.. i barely have any friends that i can realy talk to. i have like christine and alex who completely understand me. i have the few others that i talk to but thet dont understand exactly what im goin thru right now. and brian is always talking to matt anymore so that leaves me with like two people and christine is normally on the phone with matt n brian or whatever. and alex is always on the phone with jessica.. so who does that leave me??? me myself and i and im the one who put my gawd damn self in this mess. so its pretty fuckin sucky for me right now. i dunno. i hafta go get ready to go to school. its picture day! whoo! NOT! anyways.. ill update more later... lots-0-love... -me