Scratch That...Part Two
Now for the continuation of my last post.
Sunday morning my dad comes into my room with the phone in his hand and gives it to me. I answer and it's Brian calling to talk but as soon as I answer he says he will call me back since I had just woken up. I told him not to hang up cause I was up now. I am one of those people where once I wake up for any reason I can't go back to sleep...unless it's like 2 hours later and most of the time it's because of my meds, but that's a little off topic. When I finish talking to him I go to my parents room and put the phone back on the base. My parents are just kinda giving me this look and then my mom blurts out "We have something to ask you...well your dad wants to go first." I look at my dad and he asks what I did all day Saturday. I take a deep sigh and re-tell everything to the point where I almost tell him what I ate for lunch at the mexican restaurant. After I finish he just kinda sits there, and my mom says "I don't really ask questions if I don't want to know the answer." Then I look at my dad and say "If your real question is if Brian and I had sex the answer is no."
I have to take a time out now and just say my brain and my little voices in my head were shouting at me...NOOO WHY DID YOU SAY THAT?!
Then my mom asks her question which was "Do you think I look better now as compared to to 10-15 years ago?" I tell her yes, and after she talks some more I just go back to my room. Later that day I follow my mom to her sewing room and I am sitting down there fuming and I ask "Why do people say I am allowed to date and go places when really they don't trust me? He called twice and then was trying to get me to come home early just because he was insecure. I don't like how he says he trusts me and then second guesses almost everything I do." Then my very keen, to the point of scariness, mother says "I don't know, he really shouldn't ask questions that he doesn't want to know the true answer to. That's why I don't ask...I know that if people were really up to something it wouldn't matter what time it was or where they were, they would just do it." By this point I am staring dead at her and then she says "I just hope and pray that whatever people are up to...that they are taking the right precautions..." the she gives me this knowing look and instead of the fervent denying that I had been doing I say "Well Brian is too paranoid about having kids, his mom gave him this whole speech about how if he had kids anything he would have gotten for Christmas would go to his kids."
Another time out...that was like admittance right? Cause I never said "Oh mom, we aren't up to anything," or "didn't I say I wasn't going to have sex until I was married?" So it's just my guess but I think she knows and if she doesn't she highly suspects. She had known before Brian and I had started dating that I would have sex with him. We had gotten into a conversation and I was saying that even if I was dating him I wouldn't go that far. She just looked at me and said "You might can lie to yourself but you can't lie to me...it would eventually come to that." In my mind at that time I was thinking it would probably happen but at the time he was already dating someone else.
So Laura you're guess was right, and I have to say I don't regret it...I just am upset that I'm in the situation I'm in with my dad, this is the one time I have lied about something big.
Sunday morning my dad comes into my room with the phone in his hand and gives it to me. I answer and it's Brian calling to talk but as soon as I answer he says he will call me back since I had just woken up. I told him not to hang up cause I was up now. I am one of those people where once I wake up for any reason I can't go back to sleep...unless it's like 2 hours later and most of the time it's because of my meds, but that's a little off topic. When I finish talking to him I go to my parents room and put the phone back on the base. My parents are just kinda giving me this look and then my mom blurts out "We have something to ask you...well your dad wants to go first." I look at my dad and he asks what I did all day Saturday. I take a deep sigh and re-tell everything to the point where I almost tell him what I ate for lunch at the mexican restaurant. After I finish he just kinda sits there, and my mom says "I don't really ask questions if I don't want to know the answer." Then I look at my dad and say "If your real question is if Brian and I had sex the answer is no."
I have to take a time out now and just say my brain and my little voices in my head were shouting at me...NOOO WHY DID YOU SAY THAT?!
Then my mom asks her question which was "Do you think I look better now as compared to to 10-15 years ago?" I tell her yes, and after she talks some more I just go back to my room. Later that day I follow my mom to her sewing room and I am sitting down there fuming and I ask "Why do people say I am allowed to date and go places when really they don't trust me? He called twice and then was trying to get me to come home early just because he was insecure. I don't like how he says he trusts me and then second guesses almost everything I do." Then my very keen, to the point of scariness, mother says "I don't know, he really shouldn't ask questions that he doesn't want to know the true answer to. That's why I don't ask...I know that if people were really up to something it wouldn't matter what time it was or where they were, they would just do it." By this point I am staring dead at her and then she says "I just hope and pray that whatever people are up to...that they are taking the right precautions..." the she gives me this knowing look and instead of the fervent denying that I had been doing I say "Well Brian is too paranoid about having kids, his mom gave him this whole speech about how if he had kids anything he would have gotten for Christmas would go to his kids."
Another time out...that was like admittance right? Cause I never said "Oh mom, we aren't up to anything," or "didn't I say I wasn't going to have sex until I was married?" So it's just my guess but I think she knows and if she doesn't she highly suspects. She had known before Brian and I had started dating that I would have sex with him. We had gotten into a conversation and I was saying that even if I was dating him I wouldn't go that far. She just looked at me and said "You might can lie to yourself but you can't lie to me...it would eventually come to that." In my mind at that time I was thinking it would probably happen but at the time he was already dating someone else.
So Laura you're guess was right, and I have to say I don't regret it...I just am upset that I'm in the situation I'm in with my dad, this is the one time I have lied about something big.