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Yeah, I did a lot of pondering today. I also slept about a total of 3 hours. Its weird. I made this really weird connection between my life and fight club. I realize, for those of you who know me, my life is nowhere as cool as fight club but bear with me here.
I'm kind of like Edward Norton's character in a couple of ways but I don't think I'd have the balls to obliterate my brains like he does at the end... (sorry to those I've just ruined the movie for...) I'm usually looking for acceptance or comfort like he does while going to his support groups. Secondly, while everything I own is not IKEA, I do usually have a pretty good look to my room.(when it's clean, which is usually a good 80-90% of the time.) Norton's character is timid, bland, average, someone you'd pass on the street and not give a second glance. Your regular run-of-the-mill, average joe.
When Norton's character "falls asleep" his cooler, better, faster, stronger, and Brad Pitt looking self comes out. I relate this to my imagination more than me falling asleep.(which it seems I rarely do anymore.) When I start to actually think, I can do things or say things I'd never dream of doing or saying. I have conversations with girls I'd usually be afraid to approach. I snowboard better than I ever have done in my experiences so far. I'm cool, I look awesome, I am awesome. But then my "Norton" takes over when its time to actually step up.
I hate it.
And lately, my Norton stays around longer than he's welcome. I miss actually being able to pretend I'm cool, or that other people wanna be as cool as me. Theres nobody like that. Theres people I'd like to be more like, wheither its being more motivated or better looking or being more in shape or being smarter or being more talented...
I just sometimes wish my "Pitt" side came out more. I mean seriously, who wouldn't?
I'm kind of like Edward Norton's character in a couple of ways but I don't think I'd have the balls to obliterate my brains like he does at the end... (sorry to those I've just ruined the movie for...) I'm usually looking for acceptance or comfort like he does while going to his support groups. Secondly, while everything I own is not IKEA, I do usually have a pretty good look to my room.(when it's clean, which is usually a good 80-90% of the time.) Norton's character is timid, bland, average, someone you'd pass on the street and not give a second glance. Your regular run-of-the-mill, average joe.
When Norton's character "falls asleep" his cooler, better, faster, stronger, and Brad Pitt looking self comes out. I relate this to my imagination more than me falling asleep.(which it seems I rarely do anymore.) When I start to actually think, I can do things or say things I'd never dream of doing or saying. I have conversations with girls I'd usually be afraid to approach. I snowboard better than I ever have done in my experiences so far. I'm cool, I look awesome, I am awesome. But then my "Norton" takes over when its time to actually step up.
I hate it.
And lately, my Norton stays around longer than he's welcome. I miss actually being able to pretend I'm cool, or that other people wanna be as cool as me. Theres nobody like that. Theres people I'd like to be more like, wheither its being more motivated or better looking or being more in shape or being smarter or being more talented...
I just sometimes wish my "Pitt" side came out more. I mean seriously, who wouldn't?