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Sep 12, 2004 00:16

just read this in nikki's journal..

"I just read Steff's journal. I dunno, maybe I should stop reading it. It upsets me more often than not. It's like she used to be so excited to talk to me, and even force me to hang out with her..(not really).. And we kept saying how once school started again we'd start hanging out more. And that life was just too stressful for us to hang out during the summer. Now, I read her journal and she's always hanging out with someone, which I'm not jealous about, but it makes me wonder why she doesn't call and ask me to hang out with her as well? I don't know. I think I'm done with it. I don't see us having a friendship.. I really don't..
(Sorry if this upsets YOU)"

and i just want to say..that's another person who has given up on a friendship/relationship with me, even before it could really start..

i don't know. i am very upset by it, that she has given up so easily, i don't know, sometimes lives intermix, but i really felt something with her. i just hope she f'gives me, for whatever i have done, or have not done.

i do not know. i have just done something i have not done in ages. it burns. depression has got to me. she's not online and, wtf..? what did that last line mean? 'sorry if this upsets YOU?' what? it doesn't upset her as well..? with all this friendship bullshit happening around me, i don't know if i can take it anymore.

i don't know, i am going to go.
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