something good can come out of this whole thing

[i_hate_journals]

So you, and yes, you know who you are, I want to thank you. I want to thank you for making me realize what I want, and especially what I dont want. without the past month and a half, I would still be the same person I was before that, but thanks to you, I can see now my shortcomings, and I can fix them. We will never have what I once thought I wanted, but I still get a feeling that I somehow owe you. One day, maybe you will realize what you want in life, and you, unlike myself, will know where to find it and how to get it. I kinda wish the past 2 years of my life never happened. I think it might actually be closer to 2 and a half years. I didnt like leaving when I did. Im glad I left, but there were situations that I feel could have been better placed upon my departure. Had things been the way I wanted, life would be different right now. I guess sometimes to realize these things, something drastic has to happen. After everything I have seen and done, my greatest regret is still that my only ever love probably still pukes when she hears my name. till next time....

P.S. I still smile when I think about taco bell fajita commercials