There's only so much I can fake. [There's only so much that I can prove.]
[ Make a list of habits]
• Using the sun and the stars to tell time.
• Keeping my ability default set on ‘calm’
• Baths as opposed to showers
• Assessing a situation, every situation as I walk into it.
• Looking to Alice for confirmation of my assessment of the situation.
• Constantly ‘sizing’ the other guy up.
• Developing a strategy to take the ‘other’ guy down
• My accent. I’ve not lived in the south for decades and I doubt I will live there again but my accent remains, out of habit I suppose.
• Normal human tics (these get their own list)
[Human tics]
• Blinking
• Not staring at something too long (With the exception of Alice. I tend to stare at her a great deal)
• Restlessness, particularly with my hands. I twirl and flip pens, bats, pencils etc between my fingers. A bit of it is showing off and entirely too ostentatious to be human but it’s become a habit in and of itself. I can’t hold something and not flip, toss, twirl and fiddle with whatever it is. (Alice swears it’s ‘sexy’)
• Breathing
[Make a list of obsessions]
• Alice
• Pushing myself to abstain from feeding as long as the others do (despite knowing it’s potentially dangerous)
• Civil war books. They’re generally, incredibly wrong. However, I’m still obsessed with reading them even though they make me angry.
• Baseball. I love playing it and watching it.
[Make a list of hopes]
• Alice always
• My control will remain intact and grow stronger with time.
• One of these days my past won’t haunt me.
• If my past no longer haunts me, I’ll still be the man that Alice has made me.
• Emmett will realize brute strength does is not always enough.
[Make a list of disappointments]
• I’ve not got many but most of them involve myself.
• My lack of control
• How many days I have when I still want to abandon the eating habits I’ve imposed upon myself.
• It took me a century to leave.
• Using the sun and the stars to tell time.
• Keeping my ability default set on ‘calm’
• Baths as opposed to showers
• Assessing a situation, every situation as I walk into it.
• Looking to Alice for confirmation of my assessment of the situation.
• Constantly ‘sizing’ the other guy up.
• Developing a strategy to take the ‘other’ guy down
• My accent. I’ve not lived in the south for decades and I doubt I will live there again but my accent remains, out of habit I suppose.
• Normal human tics (these get their own list)
[Human tics]
• Blinking
• Not staring at something too long (With the exception of Alice. I tend to stare at her a great deal)
• Restlessness, particularly with my hands. I twirl and flip pens, bats, pencils etc between my fingers. A bit of it is showing off and entirely too ostentatious to be human but it’s become a habit in and of itself. I can’t hold something and not flip, toss, twirl and fiddle with whatever it is. (Alice swears it’s ‘sexy’)
• Breathing
[Make a list of obsessions]
• Alice
• Pushing myself to abstain from feeding as long as the others do (despite knowing it’s potentially dangerous)
• Civil war books. They’re generally, incredibly wrong. However, I’m still obsessed with reading them even though they make me angry.
• Baseball. I love playing it and watching it.
[Make a list of hopes]
• Alice always
• My control will remain intact and grow stronger with time.
• One of these days my past won’t haunt me.
• If my past no longer haunts me, I’ll still be the man that Alice has made me.
• Emmett will realize brute strength does is not always enough.
[Make a list of disappointments]
• I’ve not got many but most of them involve myself.
• My lack of control
• How many days I have when I still want to abandon the eating habits I’ve imposed upon myself.
• It took me a century to leave.