everything that we survived, its gonna be alright

[i_canbe_cruel]

so ive moved into the new place. its alright. i mean...its just a temp so i cant be too picky, right? im within walking distance of the cavern which means ive been hanging with scotty a lot which means ive gotten like ZERO sleep. a bartenders schedule sucks. its killing me! last night rene and i got in this ridiculous fight. it was mostly his fault. he was being mean to me and just unleashed this shit storm on me and told me how much of an awful person i am and such and such. i cried a lot of course. it was all very dramatic. something that i was not at all expecting bc we said we would not do dramatics. i ended up telling him about scotty which obviously he was not happy about, but i also explained that scotty and i arent getting married and that this is nothing serious. its just us hanging out and me enjoying it because its fun and stress free. either way im exhausted with life. between moving, emotional baggage, and lack of sleep i dont even know myself anymore.

i miss my friends. more specifically i miss tiffany. im not sure she even wants to be my friend anymore bc ive been such a giant asshole lately. these things really are my fault. i get so caught up with nonsense that i forget about things and people that really DO matter to me. i hope we can be friends again and that you dont hate me! i think enough people arent too fond of me right now that i dont think i can handle one of my best friends feeling that way about me.