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my brother is down till saturday.
he's one of the few that i tell my life story too, mainly cos ours is practically the same and he understands it.
thing is, while i love to see him (cos its not often that i do) i just know that this week is gonna be full of long convos about my parents and all that and it's just gonna get me down.
he understands it all cos he's going through it too, its just theres so much you know and i dunno what im really saying now.
me and him have been trying to fix this mess for nearly a year now and well it hasnt really worked. all its done has messed us up. i suppose we have to realise that we're only young. how can we fix things that happened when we were little. you know?
when he first went to dundee i was devastated. like actually. before he went i was a bit of a loser and he was like my best friend. so i felt kinda alone. and then i made friends and adapted and all that. and then all of this happened and i guess its buggered me cos he's not been here. he's a phone call away. but it's not the same. im sorta going off on a tangent. and i cant remember what the actual point of this was. does anyone know? is anyone reading this? lol. whoa. i laughed. excellent.
at work today i had to clean all the litter surrounding the shop. if my life doesnt work out i think i can make it as a skiv working for the council. thats nice to know. im reassured. i can sweep.
he's one of the few that i tell my life story too, mainly cos ours is practically the same and he understands it.
thing is, while i love to see him (cos its not often that i do) i just know that this week is gonna be full of long convos about my parents and all that and it's just gonna get me down.
he understands it all cos he's going through it too, its just theres so much you know and i dunno what im really saying now.
me and him have been trying to fix this mess for nearly a year now and well it hasnt really worked. all its done has messed us up. i suppose we have to realise that we're only young. how can we fix things that happened when we were little. you know?
when he first went to dundee i was devastated. like actually. before he went i was a bit of a loser and he was like my best friend. so i felt kinda alone. and then i made friends and adapted and all that. and then all of this happened and i guess its buggered me cos he's not been here. he's a phone call away. but it's not the same. im sorta going off on a tangent. and i cant remember what the actual point of this was. does anyone know? is anyone reading this? lol. whoa. i laughed. excellent.
at work today i had to clean all the litter surrounding the shop. if my life doesnt work out i think i can make it as a skiv working for the council. thats nice to know. im reassured. i can sweep.