Fuckidy fuck fuck
So Wednesday was a disaster. Seriously. I really should have just been open. Like a book. Talk talk talk talk. Fuck you. I should have said that. I should have said "fuck you". Whatever.
Text him tonight. Don't know if I should have or not. Told him he should come over more often. He asked why. I told him I liked hanging out with him. He said ok. I don't know if that means ok he is gonna come over more. Or ok as in he thinks I am a weirdo. I wanna go with the first one, but fear it might be the second one. I just need to relax.
My weekend sucks now. The thing I was semi looking forward to got canceled. Then I was gonna go out with Mandy tongiht, get drunk. Not going to happen. She backed out because she is "tired". Who isn't tired? Sure I could still get drunk, alone, at home. Who wants that? Eh.
Still sick, still getting worse. I feel really shitty today. I guess its good I am not going out then. I wish there were answers to my questions. I wish I had the money to go talk to Sylvia(sp?) Brown. She knows everything.
Text him tonight. Don't know if I should have or not. Told him he should come over more often. He asked why. I told him I liked hanging out with him. He said ok. I don't know if that means ok he is gonna come over more. Or ok as in he thinks I am a weirdo. I wanna go with the first one, but fear it might be the second one. I just need to relax.
My weekend sucks now. The thing I was semi looking forward to got canceled. Then I was gonna go out with Mandy tongiht, get drunk. Not going to happen. She backed out because she is "tired". Who isn't tired? Sure I could still get drunk, alone, at home. Who wants that? Eh.
Still sick, still getting worse. I feel really shitty today. I guess its good I am not going out then. I wish there were answers to my questions. I wish I had the money to go talk to Sylvia(sp?) Brown. She knows everything.