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I absolutely love the set up I have. Yes I'm swimming in debt but damn I have practically everything I need for school, I have a BOMB ASS roommate who I can already tell will be amazing to live with, and I'm currently looking up churro machines to get for the dorm kitchenette by popular demand!
Not to mention waking up to this..
"good morning beautiful. im sorry i knocked out on u last night. how was ur night?"
..isn't too bad either =]
And the most liberating of all, I have stuck to my promise to myself all summer. I haven't talked or mentioned this since i made my decision in june, not a single word, not even when i was itching to just talk to someone about it like i always do. But I didn't and now it's almost time for me to leave and being who I am I feel you deserve to have the pieces laid out for you. I honestly thought it'd be a lot easier because I never thought the opportunity would come up, but ironically enough, it's come up more than anything else all summer. And every time I've stuck my ground with you, and it's not because i'm angry, it's not because i feel 'awkward' actually it's quite the contrary, I just made a decision about my own self-respect and look who happened to be caught in the middle of it.
The best part? About a month ago, one simple call would have changed that, but now I don't even care for that. I'll be polite, I'll be friendly and most of all I'll be exactly the way I've always been because i have no reason to be mad at you, no reason to be awkward. And that's why according to the few people who were around when i made my decision back in june, it's the worst situation for you, because it's not fixable, it's just something I don't care to have anymore, not because of you but because of me.
Not to mention waking up to this..
"good morning beautiful. im sorry i knocked out on u last night. how was ur night?"
..isn't too bad either =]
And the most liberating of all, I have stuck to my promise to myself all summer. I haven't talked or mentioned this since i made my decision in june, not a single word, not even when i was itching to just talk to someone about it like i always do. But I didn't and now it's almost time for me to leave and being who I am I feel you deserve to have the pieces laid out for you. I honestly thought it'd be a lot easier because I never thought the opportunity would come up, but ironically enough, it's come up more than anything else all summer. And every time I've stuck my ground with you, and it's not because i'm angry, it's not because i feel 'awkward' actually it's quite the contrary, I just made a decision about my own self-respect and look who happened to be caught in the middle of it.
The best part? About a month ago, one simple call would have changed that, but now I don't even care for that. I'll be polite, I'll be friendly and most of all I'll be exactly the way I've always been because i have no reason to be mad at you, no reason to be awkward. And that's why according to the few people who were around when i made my decision back in june, it's the worst situation for you, because it's not fixable, it's just something I don't care to have anymore, not because of you but because of me.