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[i_am_motorhead]

This week really sucks. I care about my friends and I hate when they're hurt or treated like nothing. My friends are everything to me. I was cranky today and just wanted to flip out. Some preteen sluts that I walked by said to each other "That boy looks like a monkey". I don't care what some bitch-ass kid thinks of me, but I really wanted to them off. I didn't because it wasn't worth it.

This is a song that seems to sum up in some ways (but not all) how I feel.

Nervous Breakdown by Black Flag

I'm about
To have a nervous breakdown
My head really hurts
If I don't find a way out of here
I'm gonna go berserk 'cuz
I'm crazy and I'm hurt
Head on my shoulders
It's going...berserk

I hear the same old talk talk talk
The same old lines
Don't do me that today, yeah
If you know what's good for you you'll get out of my way 'cuz
I'm crazy and I'm hurt
Head on my shoulders
Going...berserk

I won't apologize
For acting outta line
You see the way I am
You leave any time you can 'cuz
I'm crazy and I'm hurt
Head on my shoulders
Going...berserk

Crazy! Crazy! Crazy! Crazy!

I don't care what you fuckin' do
I don't care what you fuckin' say
I'm so sick of everything
I just want to...die!

This is not how I imagined the last week before school would be.