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I am doing much better about the death of a stranger incident. I went to the beach yesterday with more consciousness.
Today I have been putting together a presentation in Spanish about my DISP. I have to present tomorrow. Tuesday will be the last day of this program and I'm going to meet up with Laurie and my mom in Alajuela then travel with them for a while. I am sure that their visit will ease the transition from living in Costa Rica to going back to the States. I am soooo not excited to be back in the fucked up culture that is Marin and the States.
I am feeling so unsure about going home. Ideally I would like to stay here forever but there are many problems with that. I cannot use Costa Rica as an escape from my life. Too many Americans move down here and build their dream homes and isolate themselves from the culture. I need to finish college, and I will. I miss Robert a lot and it's been very hard being so far away for so long and I am concerned about coming home to him. We've both changed a lot and I worry that I wont fit into his life anymore - he's always so busy now.
I'm not trying to say that I don't have things to look forward to when I get back, my outlook is just different now. It's the anxious nerves of returning to a life that has changed while I stopped to smell the roses.
Today I have been putting together a presentation in Spanish about my DISP. I have to present tomorrow. Tuesday will be the last day of this program and I'm going to meet up with Laurie and my mom in Alajuela then travel with them for a while. I am sure that their visit will ease the transition from living in Costa Rica to going back to the States. I am soooo not excited to be back in the fucked up culture that is Marin and the States.
I am feeling so unsure about going home. Ideally I would like to stay here forever but there are many problems with that. I cannot use Costa Rica as an escape from my life. Too many Americans move down here and build their dream homes and isolate themselves from the culture. I need to finish college, and I will. I miss Robert a lot and it's been very hard being so far away for so long and I am concerned about coming home to him. We've both changed a lot and I worry that I wont fit into his life anymore - he's always so busy now.
I'm not trying to say that I don't have things to look forward to when I get back, my outlook is just different now. It's the anxious nerves of returning to a life that has changed while I stopped to smell the roses.