mystery
i am depressed.
Joe keeps pulling away from me. i tyr to be understanding that he gets busy and tired sometimes but it is hard. i havent seen him in over a week adn i have talked to him a total of 45minutes in the time i haven't seen him. He says that they are trying to work him real hard before he goes on leave so that he will get all his work done. he has been really tired and i try not to be selfish about talking to him. i try not to worry but i do. last night i told him that i felt like i would never get to see him again before he leaves and i wont ever get to talk to him. i tink that that freaked him out or something. he didn't say much after that. i texted him this morning and told him "am i going to get to see you before you go. i want to be close to you.i dunno it makes me i dunno. ttyl" was that weird or something. should i have not done that. i want to call him and explain but i am not sure if that is the right thing to do.
i sort of think that he has been distant with me because of the last time we were together. we had sex: he was on top and it lasted less thatn a minute because he came. could that be why he is pulling away form me. god i hate that word sex it just sounds so wrong. i dont feel like i did anything wrong though. it felt so right.
on a lighter note. i checked my e-mail this morning. i recieved an e-mail saying that i had applied for american singles. i figured hey it was no big deal. so i checked it out. it turns out that i am a 56 year old woman looking for a same sex relationship. i though that was sort of hilarious. whoever did that to me is goig to get it though. i already have six matches of old ladies wanting to date me. i guess that is it for now.
comment please
i picked this icon because he loves invader zim ( i hope i spelled that correctly)
Joe keeps pulling away from me. i tyr to be understanding that he gets busy and tired sometimes but it is hard. i havent seen him in over a week adn i have talked to him a total of 45minutes in the time i haven't seen him. He says that they are trying to work him real hard before he goes on leave so that he will get all his work done. he has been really tired and i try not to be selfish about talking to him. i try not to worry but i do. last night i told him that i felt like i would never get to see him again before he leaves and i wont ever get to talk to him. i tink that that freaked him out or something. he didn't say much after that. i texted him this morning and told him "am i going to get to see you before you go. i want to be close to you.i dunno it makes me i dunno. ttyl" was that weird or something. should i have not done that. i want to call him and explain but i am not sure if that is the right thing to do.
i sort of think that he has been distant with me because of the last time we were together. we had sex: he was on top and it lasted less thatn a minute because he came. could that be why he is pulling away form me. god i hate that word sex it just sounds so wrong. i dont feel like i did anything wrong though. it felt so right.
on a lighter note. i checked my e-mail this morning. i recieved an e-mail saying that i had applied for american singles. i figured hey it was no big deal. so i checked it out. it turns out that i am a 56 year old woman looking for a same sex relationship. i though that was sort of hilarious. whoever did that to me is goig to get it though. i already have six matches of old ladies wanting to date me. i guess that is it for now.
comment please
i picked this icon because he loves invader zim ( i hope i spelled that correctly)