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Right so fair bit going on around me but involving me thats a different story so far iv been fine about people leaving but i think halo leaving next week is going to hit me pritty hard just because shes responcible for a lot of hairbrain skams.
spent a bit more time with the youngsters and parker who kester took to very well but seemed strange with mike meeting the a bit like i was letting someone in even tho those wernt my proper inside friends they wer just youngsters i spend chunks of time with ocassionaly but all the same it felt odd.nice i think. i was glad parker was so sweet on them.
jay was just blank of them.
Iv gotten stronger i think and im sure as hell a lot happier. Im going the woods or dunes son just to meditate. im going to lordi for my birthday Mike booked ticketts for me!!! and as far as im aware im still going to see disturbed soon so its going to me a good couple of months hopfully. I have really bad paranoia because i had a gut instinct then a dream then another instinct that mike was going to leave me which triggered certain thoughts but meh its fine i just worried because those feelings arnt usualy wrong especialy ones that strong and repetitive but fuck it im happy and wer fine so its just me being silly.
but yeah im pretty damn happy which is absouloutly lovely and thankfully Mike fins my overprotective steak cute, and "greeen kuuke buuke" fixes everything lol daft but if youd heard it you might understand. going to maggies birthday this friday n then banksies a few weeks after oh n iv permition for a party on saturday altho it will have to be small because they are coming back n iv been bollocked a few to many tmes for my parties so more a small gathering than a party.
everything is much much better so im very glad and happy. ohhh n im going the K on saturday so another wild weekend. this weekend we went to the show n i wore a red dressthen went to jasons after me charming lisa a party to prove i could charm good party altho lots went on but it was just a really nice feeling a bit like being at jays and everyone was a lot closer in the end. Mike has been living at mine for a fe days so today im missing him a lot because im sad like that. anyway so in general im happy n my room needs sorting out so thats where im off. goodnight n all that snaffle.