Coffee and internet = epiphany?
Strange. I was just drinking coffee and reading gizmodo...and I had some sort of half-second emotional epiphany. It was sort of like deja vu, not in that I felt anything familiar about it, but I just had to do sort of an internal double-take and think "wait, what the hell did I just think/feel there for a second??"
I think that, whatever it was, made me realize what one of the main things that's felt missing in my life is, at least in general. What I miss is living in, or at least very near a big city. Western Massachusetts is beautiful and I like it there, and Amherst provides me with most of my basic modern amenities. But ultimately it's just too culturally and socially isolated. Last time I was near a big city was in Japan--I was right smack in between Osaka and Kobe, which was just wonderful. Granted, I was also in Japan, which to me is a big emotional desideratum in of itself. And of course sometimes I like the relative quiet of the country and/or suburbs. But I think that in general I do my best, and am at my happiest when I have a big city to spend my days running around in and exploring.
I think that's partly why I wanted to get into NYC at some point this week. I have an invitation from naji53 to run around and take some pictures, which sounds like a blast--just the sort of thing I'd like to do. But I'm also wanted a little longer around here, so I don't think I'll get a chance now. It's okay though, since the main thing I wanted was to get out of Amherst for a few days and go for a drive, which I got to do, and I really enjoy seeing my relatives. So it's not like I'm complaining or anything.
I just can't wait to finish school so I can start having a real life again.
I think that, whatever it was, made me realize what one of the main things that's felt missing in my life is, at least in general. What I miss is living in, or at least very near a big city. Western Massachusetts is beautiful and I like it there, and Amherst provides me with most of my basic modern amenities. But ultimately it's just too culturally and socially isolated. Last time I was near a big city was in Japan--I was right smack in between Osaka and Kobe, which was just wonderful. Granted, I was also in Japan, which to me is a big emotional desideratum in of itself. And of course sometimes I like the relative quiet of the country and/or suburbs. But I think that in general I do my best, and am at my happiest when I have a big city to spend my days running around in and exploring.
I think that's partly why I wanted to get into NYC at some point this week. I have an invitation from naji53 to run around and take some pictures, which sounds like a blast--just the sort of thing I'd like to do. But I'm also wanted a little longer around here, so I don't think I'll get a chance now. It's okay though, since the main thing I wanted was to get out of Amherst for a few days and go for a drive, which I got to do, and I really enjoy seeing my relatives. So it's not like I'm complaining or anything.
I just can't wait to finish school so I can start having a real life again.