Tryptophan to Stabilize Serotonin
Days
Without overeating: 0
Without caffeine: 1
Without alcohol: 15
Without marijuana: 3
And without Seroquel and Effexor: zero until about two weeks from now. I went to my psychiatrist on Friday and asked him to taper me off the horrid drugs. I already feel somewhat better. I'm not sleeping for 12+ hours each day now! It's more like 8.5. Much closer to eight. That's the goal. To get my life back and function more normally.
Yeah, the marijuana. I smoked it at my boy's place on Thursday night because I was in such pain, and I didn't have any ibuprofen with me. I only took three hits. I don't see that as the big problem in my life, seeing as rode my bike eight miles and walked three miles that day. Needed some sort of painkiller. I'm not going to smoke it again because it made me incapicitated for half an hour. And made me eat muuuuch more than I would have if I were not stoned. And that's a lot of food.
I'm still on the sugar binge. I just love my sweets. But that's about to change. I haven't quite grasped the concept of my higher power, but I hope that through meditation, the manifestation of my higher power will reveal itself to me. I don't know how long it'll take, but the road to healing is long. I know that the HP is somewhere inside myself, but I need to channel it. Through meditation on a regular basis, I will be able to get past the Second Step.
This is actually the first entry I've composed in over four days. So much for journalling every day. I'll get better. I need to learn how to control my own life and not try to control others. And I need to get this sleep thing down. No late night television or Internet like I'm doing right now.
Yeah. So I'm gone. And hopefully to sleep within, oh, 15 minutes.
Without overeating: 0
Without caffeine: 1
Without alcohol: 15
Without marijuana: 3
And without Seroquel and Effexor: zero until about two weeks from now. I went to my psychiatrist on Friday and asked him to taper me off the horrid drugs. I already feel somewhat better. I'm not sleeping for 12+ hours each day now! It's more like 8.5. Much closer to eight. That's the goal. To get my life back and function more normally.
Yeah, the marijuana. I smoked it at my boy's place on Thursday night because I was in such pain, and I didn't have any ibuprofen with me. I only took three hits. I don't see that as the big problem in my life, seeing as rode my bike eight miles and walked three miles that day. Needed some sort of painkiller. I'm not going to smoke it again because it made me incapicitated for half an hour. And made me eat muuuuch more than I would have if I were not stoned. And that's a lot of food.
I'm still on the sugar binge. I just love my sweets. But that's about to change. I haven't quite grasped the concept of my higher power, but I hope that through meditation, the manifestation of my higher power will reveal itself to me. I don't know how long it'll take, but the road to healing is long. I know that the HP is somewhere inside myself, but I need to channel it. Through meditation on a regular basis, I will be able to get past the Second Step.
This is actually the first entry I've composed in over four days. So much for journalling every day. I'll get better. I need to learn how to control my own life and not try to control others. And I need to get this sleep thing down. No late night television or Internet like I'm doing right now.
Yeah. So I'm gone. And hopefully to sleep within, oh, 15 minutes.