mehhh
well im watching tv right now. i dont write often so again, i'll write what i remember.
*Jon takes tennis lessons now from 9-12, then 1-3. its craziness.
*i have a job now at Cosi, so that'll be taking up time. i've already worked 2 days, but it's actually a lot of fun. the people are really cool.
*i'm realizing how close to the end of summer it is, which is making me really depressed. not because of going back to school, because i'm actually really excited for that, but the fact that JON has to go back and i won't see him is really hitting hard.
that's really the main thing on my mind, Jon going back to school. like, i don't know what to do with myself when i don't see him for ONE day, so i'm worrying about going a week without seeing him. but it won't be as bad as i thing it will, because i mean, not seeing him a day in the summer sucks cuz i have nothing else to do. when i have to go a week, i have school, work, applying for college... it won't nearly be as bad, because i'll have things to do. plus he knows if he ever wanted me to go up and see him, i'd do it. i'm not even that worried that he'll find someone up there. if he did, i probably wouldn't be shocked. it's just something i've come to expect, and not worry until that time comes. just like, this summer has been the most AMAZING summer i've ever had. like, as much as i try to hide how i feel (which is a really bad habit) like i can be myself around Jon and be totally retarded and i LOVE it. i couldn't do that before and i had to basically supress my stupid urges, which is probably why i'm used to hiding my feelings; because i couldn't show them before. i'm getting kind of better at it.
okay moving away from that stuff....
i still haven't moved and it sucked. we're supposedly moving soon. we're always moving soon. its pissing me off. ahhhhhh.
well now i'm really bored and have nothing really to talk about... so.... i'll write more in a couple days.
*Jon takes tennis lessons now from 9-12, then 1-3. its craziness.
*i have a job now at Cosi, so that'll be taking up time. i've already worked 2 days, but it's actually a lot of fun. the people are really cool.
*i'm realizing how close to the end of summer it is, which is making me really depressed. not because of going back to school, because i'm actually really excited for that, but the fact that JON has to go back and i won't see him is really hitting hard.
that's really the main thing on my mind, Jon going back to school. like, i don't know what to do with myself when i don't see him for ONE day, so i'm worrying about going a week without seeing him. but it won't be as bad as i thing it will, because i mean, not seeing him a day in the summer sucks cuz i have nothing else to do. when i have to go a week, i have school, work, applying for college... it won't nearly be as bad, because i'll have things to do. plus he knows if he ever wanted me to go up and see him, i'd do it. i'm not even that worried that he'll find someone up there. if he did, i probably wouldn't be shocked. it's just something i've come to expect, and not worry until that time comes. just like, this summer has been the most AMAZING summer i've ever had. like, as much as i try to hide how i feel (which is a really bad habit) like i can be myself around Jon and be totally retarded and i LOVE it. i couldn't do that before and i had to basically supress my stupid urges, which is probably why i'm used to hiding my feelings; because i couldn't show them before. i'm getting kind of better at it.
okay moving away from that stuff....
i still haven't moved and it sucked. we're supposedly moving soon. we're always moving soon. its pissing me off. ahhhhhh.
well now i'm really bored and have nothing really to talk about... so.... i'll write more in a couple days.