At least I think it is hormones. The feelings of being worthless and like I'm too needy for anyone in their right mind to put up with do seem to cycle like hormones. Lacking the physiological effects of those hormones it is harder to tell ( Read more... )

Its an okay tired though. I'm not broken or in a lot of pain. I'm just tired. I have worked a lot today. I have been to conventions three weekends in a row now. I have done a lot of personal, spiritual, and heart connection work. In addition I have continued to take care of my retail job and my personal business ( Read more... )

I think I don't post here often any longer because I mostly interact with the internet via my phone. I should find out if there is an app that will let me at least update. Reading on my phone is tedious ( Read more... )

Continuing with the language of my subconscious, rebuilding the second floor of a mall after years of neglect is just not easy. I keep picking up pieces of damaged self and examining them for anything worth keeping. Its like picking up and sorting old photographs. "Is there anything not damaged in this one that makes it worth salvaging?" This also ( Read more... )

Couldn't sleep well last night. Three days running now I have been awake 3 hours earlier than my usual. Not a good trend ( Read more... )

Don't think it has really sunk in yet that I have managed the "sublime" degree. Still makes my eyes roll involuntarily. I will survive ( Read more... )

Today I have consumed calories twice, had caffeine, seen my chiro, fed the cats, and paid bills. I am contemplating having a nap before starting packing. My heart feels like it is doing strange things in the rhythm/bp category. Not sure what that is about. I am sure Nell would tell me to be careful cause some of those things can kill you ( Read more... )

until I go to sleep. if I don't go to sleep then it will still be today and not tomorrow ( Read more... )

( you've been warned )

Thinking about my trip to Portland next week and getting super excited. Trying to think about things I want to take with me. I need to go to Cacao. The ice cream shop wouldn't suck but my priority is the Kapow bar. The wife y'know. She needs one ( Read more... )