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It's not being alone that hurts...
It's how you relate to being alone..
You can be perfectly fine while alone...
Yet lonely while you're among many people...
It's all how we relate to it...
Why do I let what other people think influence me?
They all say love, lots of friends, and money bring happiness.
I don't believe them. I know the third isn't true...
And.. heh.. *laughs like a farmer with toothache*.. I know the first isn't true either. Though maybe in general it's better... But yeah, no 100% happiness there either..
And the second.. Friends are good, I'm not sure I can say anything about that.. I don't remember being *totally* friendless, ever...
Actually.. I think they're all true, and not true...
They're all good to have.. but... they can, and do turn bad.. for many people... I think that as soon as you start to need them, as soon as they start to possess you, they turn bad... and none of them bring perfect happiness..
In order to be able to enjoy them to the fullest without worry or pain, you need to be able to let them go at any moment without hurting....
Easier said than done though...
It's weird.. for long periods I do fine, then every now and then something happens that slaps me in my old, bad pattern...
I've been motivating myself more for exercise, ddr, and drawing :)
It's all going well, I listened to this talk about motivation and finally found the secret to it.. And also how to brainwash and condition ourselves to good habits.
p.s.
It's weird to be in control of emotions so well...
I noticed loneliness come up and I poofed it before it could affect me..
It's not needed to feel lonely, it's not needed to hurt myself...
I can let these things go.. And not let them trouble me...
No matter what people tell me...
It's how you relate to being alone..
You can be perfectly fine while alone...
Yet lonely while you're among many people...
It's all how we relate to it...
Why do I let what other people think influence me?
They all say love, lots of friends, and money bring happiness.
I don't believe them. I know the third isn't true...
And.. heh.. *laughs like a farmer with toothache*.. I know the first isn't true either. Though maybe in general it's better... But yeah, no 100% happiness there either..
And the second.. Friends are good, I'm not sure I can say anything about that.. I don't remember being *totally* friendless, ever...
Actually.. I think they're all true, and not true...
They're all good to have.. but... they can, and do turn bad.. for many people... I think that as soon as you start to need them, as soon as they start to possess you, they turn bad... and none of them bring perfect happiness..
In order to be able to enjoy them to the fullest without worry or pain, you need to be able to let them go at any moment without hurting....
Easier said than done though...
It's weird.. for long periods I do fine, then every now and then something happens that slaps me in my old, bad pattern...
I've been motivating myself more for exercise, ddr, and drawing :)
It's all going well, I listened to this talk about motivation and finally found the secret to it.. And also how to brainwash and condition ourselves to good habits.
p.s.
It's weird to be in control of emotions so well...
I noticed loneliness come up and I poofed it before it could affect me..
It's not needed to feel lonely, it's not needed to hurt myself...
I can let these things go.. And not let them trouble me...
No matter what people tell me...