Oct 29, 2004 11:16
My wall to barricade everyone out of my head, that is. I've been talkin to this guy and i was really feelin him, but it seems like he was only after one thing. Like he really pushed it. And he makes me feel inferior. I'll be sure to stay weary of you...
I don't know how to explain to him how i feel. I just want to block him out so he doesn't know any of the bad stuff that i've been thru. People unintentionally tend to judge you by your previous experiences. I stay with him even though it seems as if he doesn't care if he's with me or not. At first, i thought he was cheating. Than, i relaized that he spends all his time here. So, how? But then again, where there's a will, there's a way. Ask PauLo...
I want to just explode when i'm with him b/c he frustrates me. I feel like i can't just be myself around him. He always nags on me. And when he describes the type of gurl he dates, everything he says is just not me. And i'm like okay, maybe he's here for the one thing that i pray he's not. But again, will-way scenario...
Anyways, i think i'm done for now, my head hurts. I need to think and then get back at you l8a.