diagnosis: fangirling
THERE'S AN EPIDEMIC GOING AROUND & IT INVOLVES BOYS! YEAH, BOYS! PRETTY BOYS!
IT'S POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS, AND MAKES GIRLS CRAZY REALLY _ _ _ _ ING CRAZY!
IT'S CALLED FANGIRL-ING!
(and it's addictive and it's like a white chocolate ice-cream cake with strawberries)
in fact, i have a complete list of all the boys that made me go pink, have two ♥'s for eyes and keel over. most recently they have been:
♥ yamashita tomohisa
♥ golf&mike
♥ ikuta toma
(golf/pichaya of brother duo, golf&mike)
(l-r: golf&mike - album art from one by one) -- i had to put this image up, golf looks so fit *swoon*
i'm a wee bit appearance obsessed with the thai brother japanese-singing duo, golf&mike. actually i'm probably more obsessed with pichaya otherwise known as golf. they're incredible ladyboys, they're pretty, wear makeup, have girly hair, clear skin and can sing and dance. if i ever got the chance to be a male, i'd like to try to be a pretty boy just for the heck ~ there's always something fascinating about wanting to spend time in someone's shoes who is famous, rich, talented and beautiful although there's always catches involved but just for the sake of being...anyhow, my the real hook to the thai brothers? their songs are the perfect pop fixation; bouncy, lighthearted and fun. i've seriously had the best time with their songs singing in my room, i can't even explain. i've taken my ipod downstairs listening to their songs to wash the dishes, to eat breakfast and wash my teeth - that's how good it is.
(l-r: ikuta toma and yamashita tomohisa)
on the flipside, i absolutely adore twenty-three year old yamashita tomohisa (yamapi ♥). over the past week i've been reading his editorial columns in seventeen magazine (courtesy of the lovely team from seventeen_0409), and the more i read about him the more i respect him as a celebrity personality and as a person. he's stubborn, hates losing to others but he has a strong character, perseverence, maturity and intelligence. he appears masculine, serious and looks a little mean and hard to get along with but in actuality he's soft; he cares deeply about his friends and family, in fact he treasures them. and when it comes to girls, he says,
"in cases with girls, i have never liked anyone based solely on appearance. relationships are probably deeper when you realize you like her only after knowing her for some time. i think this is because you're concentrating not on superficial things like looks, but her actual personality. as for me, i actually like girls who enjoy eating. it makes me think, "i want to let her eat something delicious." the truth is, just an onigiri is fine. but i want to see her face brighten with the word, "delicious!" for that, i would work hard to try to find a good restaurant for her. that's what a man is.
i have to admit that i do have a crush on him, albeit a fangirl crush. in actuality, i wasn't that into tomohisa - i watched his dramas, downloaded his songs and saw him on high rotation around the communities on livejournal but he didn't mean that much to me until i read about him, and then i fell in love with his personality. to me, tomohisa is a boyfriend prototype of what i'd like the boy i hope one day to find to be. he doesn't have to be pretty like tomohisa just maybe have aspects of the kind of person tomohisa is. truth is, a lot young boys in their late teens and early-twenties are real jerks driven by their egotistical mania, arrogance and immaturity. i mean, tomohisa can be a jerk for all i know but i just get the feeling there's more substance to him than just a pretty face and a public profile in singing and acting.
"i'm not the type of person who can get along with just anybody. but i don't particularly mind -- i'm not someone who needs to be liked by everyone. it's nice to have a lot of friends, of course, but i'd be satisfied with just one friend worth 100 people. my mabudachi (best friend) may not be cool to others, but to me, he shines. for seventeen readers out there who worry about not having enough friends -- i hope you realize that having just one person you like is a wonderful thing. to me, it's really important to get to know that one person's inner self more and spend a lot of time with him.
and on that note, i'd like to give a big hug to zara_capeverde for sticking it out with me during these past few months and for being heaps understanding.
p.s. i'm addicted to supernatural -- i seriously need to get my hands on those boxsets and some serious ackles & padalecki action.
p.p.s. i'd like to thank starrrboy for his support and honesty! woo! you've been a best mate for a real long time and we've gone through many changes over the years but i'm glad you're always here ~ even through the ordeal of evil publishing corporations hiss hiss and terrible relationships hahaha.
oh, there's something else i need to vent.
it has come to my understanding how crazy fangirls can be. who knew that 10000000 fans can dictate so much, but they can make and break careers and in the process abuse others mercilessly.
why does a fangirl of super famous korean/chinese boy band superjunior who recieved a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to meet and greet the band have to suffer so much abuse, harassment and possibly death threats from other fans albeit crazy little bitches that she had to commit suicide?
why does golf have to face angry fans who are peeved because he 'kissed' a girl in a music video? it's a music video, grow up girls! why does mike have to deny his feelings for a sexy singer (who also had a lot of abuse from fans in online forums, messageboards, emails because she could potentially be mike's 'girlfriend' ehhhhhhhh!) when paparazzi shots caught him in public displays of affection with her and admit that they're relationship will not progress any further - "there's no possibility (of our relationship progressing further), it's impossible," merely because of fans' reactions.
as much as the fans piss them off, they're like their access to their next meal ticket. for a male teen idol, when one makes lots of money off young girls the result is mass hysteria and a ton of girls with major psychological issues. that's the sad reality of being a popular male celebrity in asia, once you start dating someone publically there's the big possibility of your popularity and career sliding downhill because it doesn't fit with the model of a male celebrity. young girls like to know that they're single so they can legitimately feel that they can love them to pieces, and anybody that takes a piece of their favourite cake gets the slap!
furthermore, tomohisa recently came back from a return trip to korea and on his way to the airport terminal he was swamped by fan girls so much that he had his clothes torn, bruises, and gifts thrown at him. he handled the whole debacle incredibly well like the veteran he is, being in the business for ten years by continuing to smile and wave to fans, even helping those who had fallen over. this also reinforces the idea of how crazy fangirls can be, i personally don't understand the hysteria or the obsession but then like my mother said - "imagine if you were standing at the airport waiting for ten hours just to see tomohisa, i think you'd be pretty merciless in finding your way to him - the chances of you being near him or getting to know him is slim, so even if you can take his photo or touch his jacket that would mean so much to you."
mum has a point, damn she's insighful.
IT'S POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS, AND MAKES GIRLS CRAZY REALLY _ _ _ _ ING CRAZY!
IT'S CALLED FANGIRL-ING!
(and it's addictive and it's like a white chocolate ice-cream cake with strawberries)
in fact, i have a complete list of all the boys that made me go pink, have two ♥'s for eyes and keel over. most recently they have been:
♥ yamashita tomohisa
♥ golf&mike
♥ ikuta toma
(golf/pichaya of brother duo, golf&mike)
(l-r: golf&mike - album art from one by one) -- i had to put this image up, golf looks so fit *swoon*
i'm a wee bit appearance obsessed with the thai brother japanese-singing duo, golf&mike. actually i'm probably more obsessed with pichaya otherwise known as golf. they're incredible ladyboys, they're pretty, wear makeup, have girly hair, clear skin and can sing and dance. if i ever got the chance to be a male, i'd like to try to be a pretty boy just for the heck ~ there's always something fascinating about wanting to spend time in someone's shoes who is famous, rich, talented and beautiful although there's always catches involved but just for the sake of being...anyhow, my the real hook to the thai brothers? their songs are the perfect pop fixation; bouncy, lighthearted and fun. i've seriously had the best time with their songs singing in my room, i can't even explain. i've taken my ipod downstairs listening to their songs to wash the dishes, to eat breakfast and wash my teeth - that's how good it is.
(l-r: ikuta toma and yamashita tomohisa)
on the flipside, i absolutely adore twenty-three year old yamashita tomohisa (yamapi ♥). over the past week i've been reading his editorial columns in seventeen magazine (courtesy of the lovely team from seventeen_0409), and the more i read about him the more i respect him as a celebrity personality and as a person. he's stubborn, hates losing to others but he has a strong character, perseverence, maturity and intelligence. he appears masculine, serious and looks a little mean and hard to get along with but in actuality he's soft; he cares deeply about his friends and family, in fact he treasures them. and when it comes to girls, he says,
"in cases with girls, i have never liked anyone based solely on appearance. relationships are probably deeper when you realize you like her only after knowing her for some time. i think this is because you're concentrating not on superficial things like looks, but her actual personality. as for me, i actually like girls who enjoy eating. it makes me think, "i want to let her eat something delicious." the truth is, just an onigiri is fine. but i want to see her face brighten with the word, "delicious!" for that, i would work hard to try to find a good restaurant for her. that's what a man is.
i have to admit that i do have a crush on him, albeit a fangirl crush. in actuality, i wasn't that into tomohisa - i watched his dramas, downloaded his songs and saw him on high rotation around the communities on livejournal but he didn't mean that much to me until i read about him, and then i fell in love with his personality. to me, tomohisa is a boyfriend prototype of what i'd like the boy i hope one day to find to be. he doesn't have to be pretty like tomohisa just maybe have aspects of the kind of person tomohisa is. truth is, a lot young boys in their late teens and early-twenties are real jerks driven by their egotistical mania, arrogance and immaturity. i mean, tomohisa can be a jerk for all i know but i just get the feeling there's more substance to him than just a pretty face and a public profile in singing and acting.
"i'm not the type of person who can get along with just anybody. but i don't particularly mind -- i'm not someone who needs to be liked by everyone. it's nice to have a lot of friends, of course, but i'd be satisfied with just one friend worth 100 people. my mabudachi (best friend) may not be cool to others, but to me, he shines. for seventeen readers out there who worry about not having enough friends -- i hope you realize that having just one person you like is a wonderful thing. to me, it's really important to get to know that one person's inner self more and spend a lot of time with him.
and on that note, i'd like to give a big hug to zara_capeverde for sticking it out with me during these past few months and for being heaps understanding.
p.s. i'm addicted to supernatural -- i seriously need to get my hands on those boxsets and some serious ackles & padalecki action.
p.p.s. i'd like to thank starrrboy for his support and honesty! woo! you've been a best mate for a real long time and we've gone through many changes over the years but i'm glad you're always here ~ even through the ordeal of evil publishing corporations hiss hiss and terrible relationships hahaha.
oh, there's something else i need to vent.
it has come to my understanding how crazy fangirls can be. who knew that 10000000 fans can dictate so much, but they can make and break careers and in the process abuse others mercilessly.
why does a fangirl of super famous korean/chinese boy band superjunior who recieved a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to meet and greet the band have to suffer so much abuse, harassment and possibly death threats from other fans albeit crazy little bitches that she had to commit suicide?
why does golf have to face angry fans who are peeved because he 'kissed' a girl in a music video? it's a music video, grow up girls! why does mike have to deny his feelings for a sexy singer (who also had a lot of abuse from fans in online forums, messageboards, emails because she could potentially be mike's 'girlfriend' ehhhhhhhh!) when paparazzi shots caught him in public displays of affection with her and admit that they're relationship will not progress any further - "there's no possibility (of our relationship progressing further), it's impossible," merely because of fans' reactions.
as much as the fans piss them off, they're like their access to their next meal ticket. for a male teen idol, when one makes lots of money off young girls the result is mass hysteria and a ton of girls with major psychological issues. that's the sad reality of being a popular male celebrity in asia, once you start dating someone publically there's the big possibility of your popularity and career sliding downhill because it doesn't fit with the model of a male celebrity. young girls like to know that they're single so they can legitimately feel that they can love them to pieces, and anybody that takes a piece of their favourite cake gets the slap!
furthermore, tomohisa recently came back from a return trip to korea and on his way to the airport terminal he was swamped by fan girls so much that he had his clothes torn, bruises, and gifts thrown at him. he handled the whole debacle incredibly well like the veteran he is, being in the business for ten years by continuing to smile and wave to fans, even helping those who had fallen over. this also reinforces the idea of how crazy fangirls can be, i personally don't understand the hysteria or the obsession but then like my mother said - "imagine if you were standing at the airport waiting for ten hours just to see tomohisa, i think you'd be pretty merciless in finding your way to him - the chances of you being near him or getting to know him is slim, so even if you can take his photo or touch his jacket that would mean so much to you."
mum has a point, damn she's insighful.